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elpb3h
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Alcohol is my problem
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help-seeking
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I'm drinking right now. I know alcohol is my problem though. I'm a 24yM.I've never been to a meeting, dont know if I ever will. But, I'm a ghost of the person I once was. I know I want to get better. I need to quit drinking. I wake up feeling terrible every single day. My memory is horrible already. I stumble and stutter over words I never used to have a problem with. I have horrible social anxiety and anti-social tendencies. I've either alienated all friends I had or they moved away. I'm scared to start over and I've been living in this weird in between self indulgent world without worth. I love my wife and she deserves better. Any good advice on quitting is greatly appreciated.
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cjconner96
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2020-01-08 07:05:05
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<es>I'm drinking right now.<ee> <es>I know alcohol is my problem though.<ee> <es>I'm a 24yM.<ee><es>I've never been to a meeting, dont know if I ever will.<ee> <es>But, I'm a ghost of the person I once was.<ee> <rs>I know I want to get better.<re> <rs>I need to quit drinking.<re> <efs>I wake up feeling terrible every single day.<efe> <efs>My memory is horrible already.<efe> <efs>I stumble and stutter over words I never used to have a problem with.<efe> <efs>I have horrible social anxiety and anti-social tendencies.<efe> <efs>I've either alienated all friends I had or they moved away.<efe> <efs>I'm scared to start over and I've been living in this weird in between self indulgent world without worth.<efe> I love my wife and she deserves better. <rs>Any good advice on quitting is greatly appreciated.<re>
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ejvdbv
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How to find out what's the matter without getting therapy?
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1a
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help-seeking
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(TW FOR SELF HARM, SUICIDE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT)
Hello...this is quite odd for me to be posting on reddit as it is my first time, but I feel like today this is needed. I'm 14 and when I return to school from the Christmas holidays, I'll be choosing the subjects that I want to take my exams in. In September I'll be starting the coursework and doing mocks, and then in the September of 2021 I'll be doing the exams. This is the main part of my school life, and I've come to terms with the fact that I need to have the best work ethic, and although I would like to call myself quite mature, I need to think and act like an adult to get the best results possible. Although we do these exams at a young age, if we get bad results then we won't be able to do our final exams, which results in us not being able to get into university. As you can tell, these are moderately serious.
All through my school life, I've struggled with low mental health. I'm the top of most of my classes, I win awards in those subjects and I'm invited to seminars and inter-country forums with my school quite regularly. Despite this, I think having grades like these are what made a ripple in my mental wellbeing. I was told by my friends, family, and even school counsellor that it was my hormones going into puberty that resulted in mood swings. And for I while, that's all that I believed. I had natural teenage mood swings and that is the end of it. About a year later, I had my first panic attack due to my extreme social anxiety. I developed slight agoraphobia, and my anxiety got to the point where I couldn't talk on the phone to anybody. Communicating to others was hard, and I isolated myself from everybody around me. That's when I started self harming.
I don't want to go into too much detail, but things escalated after I was sexually assaulted by my friend to the point where I attempted suicide twice.
However, I recovered. I recovered really well, and nothing triggered me to self harm, and although my mood was still quite low, I was so much better than before. Months went by where I felt perfect to when I felt like I was at the lowest point I could get to. And now, we are in the present. If you are still reading by here then I have to say thank you so much, I won't be much longer, and I really appreciate your time reading this.
Over the Christmas holidays I spent a lot of time with my family. My two sisters saw their friends a lot, but I stayed home for pretty much the entire break, and I thought nothing of it. It's not that I didn't want to see my friends, but I thought that staying inside would help me. A couple of weeks ago I recognised symptoms. I came to this subreddit to see other peoples experiences, and I looked into mental illnesses. I definitely do not want to self diagnose or for somebody untrained to diagnose me, but the symptoms I have are similar to that of BPD (borderline personality disorder), and I find myself dissociating a lot. My friends who I've thoroughly described my problems to, worry that I have paranoid schizophrenia and/or depression. At this point, I don't know what I could possibly have but I know something isn't right. Being able to put a label on what is wrong with me would make me feel so much better, and less stressed.
There's only one problem, and it's that I can't get therapy. Both of my parents work but we just about have enough money to get by, and therapy costs way too much for us. And I could never let my parents know about my problems as they would pass it off and say that it's just my hormones. If I go to the school councillor, she'll call my parents and they'll be angry that I didn't go to them first. I always told myself that I'd wait until I'm older and have a job of my own to get therapy, but that seems like way too long to wait. I'm not asking for a diagnosis, I just need advice on what I can do to feel better, how I can become more confident, how I can tell my parents, etc. Any advice that you think could help me is so highly appreciated.
Thank you :)
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That_Chinchilla_Lady
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2020-01-04 11:02:38
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mentalillness
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(TW FOR SELF HARM, SUICIDE AND SEXUAL ASSAULT) Hello...this is quite odd for me to be posting on reddit as it is my first time, but I feel like today this is needed. I'm 14 and when I return to school from the Christmas holidays, I'll be choosing the subjects that I want to take my exams in. In September I'll be starting the coursework and doing mocks, and then in the September of 2021 I'll be doing the exams. This is the main part of my school life, and I've come to terms with the fact that I need to have the best work ethic, and although I would like to call myself quite mature, I need to think and act like an adult to get the best results possible. Although we do these exams at a young age, if we get bad results then we won't be able to do our final exams, which results in us not being able to get into university. As you can tell, these are moderately serious. <es>All through my school life, I've struggled with low mental health.<ee> I'm the top of most of my classes, I win awards in those subjects and I'm invited to seminars and inter-country forums with my school quite regularly. <es>Despite this, I think having grades like these are what made a ripple in my mental wellbeing.<ee> I was told by my friends, family, and even school counsellor that it was my hormones going into puberty that resulted in mood swings. And for I while, that's all that I believed. I had natural teenage mood swings and that is the end of it. <es>About a year later, I had my first panic attack due to my extreme social anxiety.<ee> <es>I developed slight agoraphobia, and my anxiety got to the point where I couldn't talk on the phone to anybody.<ee> <es>Communicating to others was hard, and I isolated myself from everybody around me.<ee> <es>That's when I started self harming. <ee> <es>I don't want to go into too much detail, but things escalated after I was sexually assaulted by my friend to the point where I attempted suicide twice.<ee> However, I recovered. I recovered really well, and nothing triggered me to self harm, and although my mood was still quite low, I was so much better than before. Months went by where I felt perfect to when I felt like I was at the lowest point I could get to. And now, we are in the present. If you are still reading by here then I have to say thank you so much, I won't be much longer, and I really appreciate your time reading this. Over the Christmas holidays I spent a lot of time with my family. My two sisters saw their friends a lot, but I stayed home for pretty much the entire break, and I thought nothing of it. It's not that I didn't want to see my friends, but I thought that staying inside would help me. <es>A couple of weeks ago I recognised symptoms.<ee> I came to this subreddit to see other peoples experiences, and I looked into mental illnesses. <es>I definitely do not want to self diagnose or for somebody untrained to diagnose me, but the symptoms I have are similar to that of BPD (borderline personality disorder), and I find myself dissociating a lot.<ee> <es>My friends who I've thoroughly described my problems to, worry that I have paranoid schizophrenia and/or depression.<ee> At this point, I don't know what I could possibly have but I know something isn't right. <rs>Being able to put a label on what is wrong with me would make me feel so much better, and less stressed.<re> <es>There's only one problem, and it's that I can't get therapy.<ee> <es>Both of my parents work but we just about have enough money to get by, and therapy costs way too much for us.<ee> And I could never let my parents know about my problems as they would pass it off and say that it's just my hormones. If I go to the school councillor, she'll call my parents and they'll be angry that I didn't go to them first. I always told myself that I'd wait until I'm older and have a job of my own to get therapy, but that seems like way too long to wait. <rs>I'm not asking for a diagnosis, I just need advice on what I can do to feel better, how I can become more confident, how I can tell my parents, etc.<re> Any advice that you think could help me is so highly appreciated. Thank you :)
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BPD
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eins2d
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wasnt anywhere diagnosed but got family members mentioned a lot during childhood. Now losing 2 mobiles during 2 months gets me really start thinking seriously again
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0
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rant
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Which turned my new year eve into a traumatized mess also figured losing a mobile is 5 times worse than any type of breakups.
This is sad.
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cynamite68
| 1 | 0 | 1 |
2020-01-01 21:05:44
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ADHD
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<es>wasnt anywhere diagnosed but got family members mentioned a lot during childhood.<ee> <es>Now losing 2 mobiles during 2 months gets me really start thinking seriously again<ee> <es>Which turned my new year eve into a traumatized mess also figured losing a mobile is 5 times worse than any type of breakups.<ee> <efs>This is sad.<efe>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are losing your mobiles frequently
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ejpx9x
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Best ways of improving your mental health and even social life?
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0
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survey
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I went off my antipsychotic medication for about 2 weeks because I thought I would benefit from it. I'm back on medication because I could feel my moods getting increasingly dark and murky. I'm on seroquel now if you want to know and its been really good. Just wondering what people's opinions are in how to possibly relieve paranoia, think clearer, be less bitter towards life, and feel good about myself.
I'm seeing a psychologist now, and I was seeing a psychiatrist but now I just get my meds from my GP for the moment.
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cheese_monkey_92
| 2 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-04 02:10:32
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mentalillness
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<es>I went off my antipsychotic medication for about 2 weeks because I thought I would benefit from it.<ee> <efs>I'm back on medication because I could feel my moods getting increasingly dark and murky.<efe> I'm on seroquel now if you want to know and its been really good. <rs>Just wondering what people's opinions are in how to possibly relieve paranoia, think clearer, be less bitter towards life, and feel good about myself.<re> <es>I'm seeing a psychologist now, and I was seeing a psychiatrist but now I just get my meds from my GP for the moment.<ee>
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eibybn
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Why I can't stand the thought that tonight is the beginning to another year.
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1b
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rant
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I'm a two-time combat vet, I served in Iraq (Al-Anbar) for a year in 06-07, and Afghanistan 09-10 as infantry in the Marine Corps. Since I got out of the military in 2010 I have always been good because of my insane drive to do things "right" or OCD as the Dr puts it. But I just can't find any consistency and it makes suicide seem like a viable and practical option at this point. I genuinely don't know how to be a normal person anymore, I've had good "starter jobs" where I destroy myself working my fingers to the bone and everyone around me says they want to promote me. It always comes crashing down with extreme anxiety I hide from other people, 2019 was the worst year of my life and I'm sitting here on new years eve thinking, "do I really want another year?". In 2019, I got divorced by a wife who cheated and then got an abortion without telling me, had to quit my job because she wanted to live in a place we could only afford on two incomes, and paid off the rest of the 6 months remaining on the lease by eating nothing but tortilla's and peanut butter while working at McDonald's and living on the floor of my old friends house. I used to have such energy to start over and get motivated about the next big thing. While I was working at MCD I got promoted to shift manager and my strange and bad communicating boss(genuinely I think her anxiety kept her from being capable of reassurance or straight forward communication). She always said nice things and told me what a good job I was doing but, the more I worked the more it became me picking up just a little bit more of everyone else's job until I was working to the point of being drenched in sweat every single night ( I managed the overnight). I did such a good job in fact, that when an employee called out or the shift before me left a huge mess it started to give me panic attacks because I was 100% positive I wouldn't be able to deliver the results I was normally capable of. During this process I found out I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It wasn't the kind of thing where the doctor said "you arent going to make it" but hearing the big "C" word when you already have diagnosed PTSD/Acute anxiety disorder, and are stressed beyond belief in this kind of job while sleeping on the floor because you are still paying off debt from a divorce you didn't want was "it". I just couldn't take it anymore, so I quit and came home to my parents farm while I got treatment, I am cancer free now post surgery by 7 days and I genuinely can't find it in myself to start over again. I just want to give up on life because it feels like a cycle of try hard and do the right things and wait for some non-existent god to answer prayers for stability, I look around and realize I genuinely am a good person who wants the absolute best for people around me. Then I struggle to ever find anything that takes the edge off so that I can not be freaking out as the pressure builds and gives me chest pains. What is life and why do I have to keep doing it?
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DDkilo311
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2020-01-01 01:18:17
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ptsd
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<es>I'm a two-time combat vet, I served in Iraq (Al-Anbar) for a year in 06-07, and Afghanistan 09-10 as infantry in the Marine Corps.<ee> <es>Since I got out of the military in 2010 I have always been good because of my insane drive to do things "right" or OCD as the Dr puts it.<ee> <es>But I just can't find any consistency and it makes suicide seem like a viable and practical option at this point.<ee> <efs>I genuinely don't know how to be a normal person anymore, I've had good "starter jobs" where I destroy myself working my fingers to the bone and everyone around me says they want to promote me.<efe> <es>It always comes crashing down with extreme anxiety I hide from other people, 2019 was the worst year of my life and I'm sitting here on new years eve thinking, "do I really want another year?".<ee> <es>In 2019, I got divorced by a wife who cheated and then got an abortion without telling me, had to quit my job because she wanted to live in a place we could only afford on two incomes, and paid off the rest of the 6 months remaining on the lease by eating nothing but tortilla's and peanut butter while working at McDonald's and living on the floor of my old friends house.<ee> <es>I used to have such energy to start over and get motivated about the next big thing.<ee> <es>While I was working at MCD I got promoted to shift manager and my strange and bad communicating boss(genuinely I think her anxiety kept her from being capable of reassurance or straight forward communication).<ee> <es>She always said nice things and told me what a good job I was doing but, the more I worked the more it became me picking up just a little bit more of everyone else's job until I was working to the point of being drenched in sweat every single night ( I managed the overnight).<ee> <es>I did such a good job in fact, that when an employee called out or the shift before me left a huge mess it started to give me panic attacks because I was 100% positive I wouldn't be able to deliver the results I was normally capable of.<ee> <es>During this process I found out I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.<ee> <es>It wasn't the kind of thing where the doctor said "you arent going to make it" but hearing the big "C" word when you already have diagnosed PTSD/Acute anxiety disorder, and are stressed beyond belief in this kind of job while sleeping on the floor because you are still paying off debt from a divorce you didn't want was "it".<ee> <es>I just couldn't take it anymore, so I quit and came home to my parents farm while I got treatment, I am cancer free now post surgery by 7 days and I genuinely can't find it in myself to start over again.<ee> <efs>I just want to give up on life because it feels like a cycle of try hard and do the right things and wait for some non-existent god to answer prayers for stability, I look around and realize I genuinely am a good person who wants the absolute best for people around me.<efe> <efs>Then I struggle to ever find anything that takes the edge off so that I can not be freaking out as the pressure builds and gives me chest pains.<efe> What is life and why do I have to keep doing it?
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how you feel about all your past trauma
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel like giving up
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eib0ll
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Waiting for my mind to have a breakdown once the “New Year” feeling isn’t there anymore
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0
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rant
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I don’t know about anyone else, but I’m a little bit worried that I’ll go back to being depressed in a few days time or something. Last year, I tried not to have any breakdowns for the start of 2019. A mere 10 days later, I broke down crying. I wasn’t the same for that entire year. Up until December, where I was ok that month. Now I just wait... it’s a weird way to act and feel, but it feels a bit normal.
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anonloz11
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2020-01-01 00:01:25
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depression
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<efs><es>I don’t know about anyone else, but I’m a little bit worried that I’ll go back to being depressed in a few days time or something.<ee><efe> Last year, I tried not to have any breakdowns for the start of 2019. A mere 10 days later, I broke down crying. I wasn’t the same for that entire year. Up until December, where I was ok that month. <efs>Now I just wait... it’s a weird way to act and feel, but it feels a bit normal.<efe>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are afraid of relapsing
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ekbtwq
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I'm borderline and am having treatment, to anyone who wanna see how quickly mood switches, this is what I got.
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0
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rant
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Scarecrow_1912
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2020-01-05 11:21:35
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mentalillness
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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ejmpdm
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I relapsed
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1a
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rant
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It had been about a year and a half, and tonight I fucked up. There's blood all over the floor and my emotions are all over the place. I'm doing well in my life but I just wasn't strong enough tonight. And I feel like such a failure for it. Though I know it's not that simple. I've self harmed for about 13 years and I feel like I will never be free from it. It's as though it never really goes away and that fact makes me incredibly sad. I won't bore you with the details, but I wanted to express this somehow. I hope whoever read this is doing well.
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Fantasin
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2020-01-03 22:13:04
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selfharm
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<es>It had been about a year and a half, and tonight I fucked up.<ee> <es>There's blood all over the floor and my emotions are all over the place.<ee> <es>I'm doing well in my life but I just wasn't strong enough tonight.<ee> <efs>And I feel like such a failure for it.<efe> <es>Though I know it's not that simple.<ee> <es>I've self harmed for about 13 years and I feel like I will never be free from it.<ee> <efs>It's as though it never really goes away and that fact makes me incredibly sad.<efe> <rs>I won't bore you with the details, but I wanted to express this somehow.<re> I hope whoever read this is doing well.
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why did you self harm again
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what would help you get free from self harm
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eiagyz
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new years resolution
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1c
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rant
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my new years resolution is to finally kill myself. fuck all of this shit.
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Ajmore430
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2019-12-31 23:17:27
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depression
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my new years resolution is to finally kill myself. fuck all of this shit.
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suicidal
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eimk1i
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All forms of ADDICTON!!
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0
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chitchat
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sexxylassy
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2020-01-01 19:35:01
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addiction
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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f2bh2t
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Behind closed doors - a poem about a person getting abused and you see it but let it go, thinking it’s not required but it always is, sometimes all a person suffering from violence need is support.
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chitchat
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There is a crack in the doorframe
You probably won’t see it
The person in the house saw it
The doors are closed
The crack in the doorframe turned bigger
You probably won’t feel it
The person in the house felt it
The doors are closed
The doorframe cracked
You probably see it
You ignore, so does the person in the house
The doors are closed
The door opens one day
A river flows out, bloody and regretful
The person of the house can be seen floating
You wished the crack was seen earlier
You are late, the person of house was drowned with the closed door floating.
I wished I pushed open the door
Sometimes all it needs is a push for the person in the house to live.
Be that dam before the river flows, the person inside the house will become a sparkling lake that I promise
- the person who was floating and waiting for the dam
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liveandlove18
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2020-02-11 17:17:37
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domesticviolence
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There is a crack in the doorframe You probably won’t see it The person in the house saw it The doors are closed The crack in the doorframe turned bigger You probably won’t feel it The person in the house felt it The doors are closed The doorframe cracked You probably see it You ignore, so does the person in the house The doors are closed The door opens one day A river flows out, bloody and regretful The person of the house can be seen floating You wished the crack was seen earlier You are late, the person of house was drowned with the closed door floating. I wished I pushed open the door Sometimes all it needs is a push for the person in the house to live. Be that dam before the river flows, the person inside the house will become a sparkling lake that I promise - the person who was floating and waiting for the dam
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random
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ei7n9v
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New outlook for 2020
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chitchat
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&#x200B;
I hope this message finds you all well. But who the hell am I kidding this is an anxiety thread.
I decided to close all social media for the new year with the exception of reddit. Facebook deleted (not deactivated) twitter and Instagram deleted. The hate and misinformation being spread is enough to give anyone an anxiety disorder. If you really want to help your mental health, stop defining what it is to be healthy, by fake happy moments or unattainable lifestyles others may post.
In 2020 I decided to start working on self love and relationships. I can't change whats going on in the news but I can change how I treat my neighbor who may not vote the same as I do. You see, I think we lost our ability to empathize with each other, to relate to each other on a human level.
2020 will be the year of exercise, meditation and proper diet. The year of love.
Healthy body, healthy mind.
Happy New Year reddit users.
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davejholmes
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2019-12-31 19:34:16
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Anxiety
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&#x200B; I hope this message finds you all well. But who the hell am I kidding this is an anxiety thread. I decided to close all social media for the new year with the exception of reddit. Facebook deleted (not deactivated) twitter and Instagram deleted. The hate and misinformation being spread is enough to give anyone an anxiety disorder. If you really want to help your mental health, stop defining what it is to be healthy, by fake happy moments or unattainable lifestyles others may post. In 2020 I decided to start working on self love and relationships. I can't change whats going on in the news but I can change how I treat my neighbor who may not vote the same as I do. You see, I think we lost our ability to empathize with each other, to relate to each other on a human level. 2020 will be the year of exercise, meditation and proper diet. The year of love. Healthy body, healthy mind. Happy New Year reddit users.
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positive
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ek3pgk
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I find myself inadvertently mentioning traumatic events in casual conversations [TW mention of trauma reasons without any details]
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help-seeking
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My PTSD is from CSA, emotionally and physically abusive parents, and an abusive relationship I stayed in for way too long. These are things I only ever discuss with my closest friend, and it's still extremely rare.
But sometimes I'll be talking to acquaintances or casual friends and I let a milder incident slip. For example the other day I mentioned how a guy from the local scene had assaulted me, because it was relevant to what we were talking about. My friend gave me that wide-eyed, pity-filled look and it was only then that I remembered that it wasn't as light an event as it seemed to me.
I hate how my heavier trauma desensitised me to the rest, it's like my whole scale of what's acceptable is off. Plus, I'd love to be more mindful of what could trigger others, instead of mentioning an assault like it's just a detail in a story.
Anyone has that too?
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Zoni_Zonah
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2020-01-04 22:36:13
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ptsd
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<es>My PTSD is from CSA, emotionally and physically abusive parents, and an abusive relationship I stayed in for way too long.<ee> <es>These are things I only ever discuss with my closest friend, and it's still extremely rare.<ee> <es>But sometimes I'll be talking to acquaintances or casual friends and I let a milder incident slip.<ee> <es>For example the other day I mentioned how a guy from the local scene had assaulted me, because it was relevant to what we were talking about.<ee> <es>My friend gave me that wide-eyed, pity-filled look and it was only then that I remembered that it wasn't as light an event as it seemed to me.<ee> <efs>I hate how my heavier trauma desensitised me to the rest, it's like my whole scale of what's acceptable is off.<efe> <rs>Plus, I'd love to be more mindful of what could trigger others, instead of mentioning an assault like it's just a detail in a story.<re> <rs>Anyone has that too?<re>
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eoiokv
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Mussle tense while trying to sleep
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help-seeking
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Hi, i've got second day mussle tense while falling asleep, and when i was on the edge of sleep, i always twitched, and that woke me up. Now i have trouble with sleep. Do you have some experience with this? It will stop? I have also anxiety, so that May be the cause.
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THONZIN
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2020-01-14 08:39:43
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selfhelp
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<es>Hi, i've got second day mussle tense while falling asleep, and when i was on the edge of sleep, i always twitched, and that woke me up.<ee> <es>Now i have trouble with sleep.<ee> <rs>Do you have some experience with this?<re> <rs>It will stop?<re> <es>I have also anxiety, so that May be the cause.<ee>
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eipxkm
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ADHD gets worse at night
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help-seeking
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High school senior here, undiagnosed but I’ve known I’ve had adhd for probably around 5 years. I’ve found that my adhd gradually gets worse into the night to the point of an exponential curve where it skyrockets around 2 am. Its not as bad when I’m at home doing homework, but if I’m out with friends none of my energy is being used to fight my adhd. It gets to the point where occasionally my friends are convinced that I’m either drunk or high because I get so hyper and so spaced out. Does anyone else relate to this at all, or maybe have an explanation?
TLDR: at night my adhd gets a lot worse, sometimes my friends think I’m drunk/high when I’m completely sober.
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bcefghijklmnopsvwxyz
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2020-01-01 23:53:23
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ADHD
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<es>High school senior here, undiagnosed but I’ve known I’ve had adhd for probably around 5 years.<ee> <es>I’ve found that my adhd gradually gets worse into the night to the point of an exponential curve where it skyrockets around 2 am.<ee> <es>Its not as bad when I’m at home doing homework, but if I’m out with friends none of my energy is being used to fight my adhd.<ee> <efs>It gets to the point where occasionally my friends are convinced that I’m either drunk or high because I get so hyper and so spaced out.<efe> <rs>Does anyone else relate to this at all, or maybe have an explanation?<re> <es>TLDR: at night my adhd gets a lot worse, sometimes my friends think I’m drunk/high when I’m completely sober.<ee>
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how adhd makes you feel
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ei6wbx
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Excrutiating urgency to get out of the car.
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survey
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Does anyone else feel an excrutiating urgency to get out of the car?
Example: I'm out running errands. I pick up a few things, it all fits in one sack. When I arrive back home, I have to...
- put the car in park, turn it off
- grab my pocketbook
- grab my sack of groceries
Doesn't seem like a lot, but having to do those few simple things - gather myself and grab things out of the seat to take in - rather than simply beam myself out of the car immediately without having to put it in park or even pull the door handle to open the door feels so absolutely frustrating.
In other circumstances I'm generally a patient person, but this issue of impatience when getting out of the car is so strong.
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amberaubade
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2019-12-31 18:40:32
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ADHD
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<es>Does anyone else feel an excrutiating urgency to get out of the car?<ee> <es>Example: I'm out running errands. I pick up a few things, it all fits in one sack.<ee> <es> When I arrive back home, I have to... - put the car in park, turn it off - grab my pocketbook - grab my sack of groceries<ee> <efs>Doesn't seem like a lot, but having to do those few simple things - gather myself and grab things out of the seat to take in - rather than simply beam myself out of the car immediately without having to put it in park or even pull the door handle to open the door feels so absolutely frustrating.<efe> <es>In other circumstances I'm generally a patient person, but this issue of impatience when getting out of the car is so strong.<ee>
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you feel excrutiating urgency to get out of the car
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esclkv
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Hit me after I self harmed
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1b
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rant
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Okay, so I'm just looking for help to digest a situation.
My boyfriend of 5 years and I get into a fight the other day. Things always get personal. The fight came from nowhere and ended in him putting me down (this is normal for us). When he speaks to me the way he does I get very angry my heart starts to race and I get hysterical. The things he says wind me up so much in the past I have have screamed, punched walls, banged my head off things.. this night I was so hysterical with how useless and awful he made me feel, I went into the bathroom, broke one of his razors and cut myself. Two deep ones on my leg and one accidental chunk out of my finger. I can't really remember much of me actually doing it or what I said to him but I just remember him hitting me once across the face.. i don't remember the pain only the feeling of shock that he hit me. I woke up and there was a bruise and cut on my face.
I'm just gonna say I have only tried to cut myself once before and this was also as a result of an argument with him. I stopped myself that time and never thought about it again!
He has never put his hands on me ever. I do feel like the way he talks to me does count as emotional abuse and I just don't know what to do.
I love him every bit of him and we have two children together.
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Lostgal92
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2020-01-22 14:21:36
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domesticviolence
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<rs>Okay, so I'm just looking for help to digest a situation.<re> <es>My boyfriend of 5 years and I get into a fight the other day.<ee> <es>Things always get personal.<ee> <es>The fight came from nowhere and ended in him putting me down (this is normal for us).<ee> <efs>When he speaks to me the way he does I get very angry my heart starts to race and I get hysterical.<efe> <es>The things he says wind me up so much in the past I have have screamed, punched walls, banged my head off things..<ee> <efs>this night I was so hysterical with how useless and awful he made me feel, I went into the bathroom, broke one of his razors and cut myself. Two deep ones on my leg and one accidental chunk out of my finger.<efe> <es>I can't really remember much of me actually doing it or what I said to him but I just remember him hitting me once across the face..<ee> <es>i don't remember the pain only the feeling of shock that he hit me.<ee> <es>I woke up and there was a bruise and cut on my face.<ee> <es>I'm just gonna say I have only tried to cut myself once before and this was also as a result of an argument with him.<ee> <es>I stopped myself that time and never thought about it again!<ee> <es>He has never put his hands on me ever.<ee> <efs>I do feel like the way he talks to me does count as emotional abuse and I just don't know what to do. <efe> <es>I love him every bit of him and we have two children together.<ee>
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ek3oyl
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I don’t know what to do
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help-seeking
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My family and i just buried my grandma over the last couple of days so my cousins and I got together after the burial and we just kicked it and drank and was having a good time. I left early because I needed to go home to pack because I leave for university tomorrow for the first time in three years.
I was talking to my best friend cousin who is also currently 7 and a half months pregnant and she was telling me some secrets were being spilt and that one of my cousins was raped by one of our uncles. Then apparently the conversation diverted towards my father being the culpable party of this. MY FATHER.
We were both sick in real time as she was unfolding the information to me she didn’t know who it would be until she found out.
I don’t know what type of proof their is or who is saying what but they are saying they are going to beat my dads ass when they see him and I just can’t allow that to happen to him if he’s guilty or innocent. I can’t allow for him to walk into something like that without knowing what’s happening. Except I’m not even supposed to know, so I can’t even ask my father for answers unless all of this unravels. I can’t ask my cousins for an explanation because it just doesn’t seem like it would blow over well. Ultimately I have planned to seek a psychologist first thing Monday so I can fucking deal with this mess but I don’t know what to do outside of that. I don’t know what to believe or who to be mad at.
I’ve worked so hard to love my dad that this breaks my heart to think it true. I can’t believe he did it but I know that we are capable of anything if we’re left alone for long enough.
The other fucked up part is that everybody is so willing to believe it’s my dad because it’s easier for all of them to accept that reality over anything else. This cousin is not reliable and comes from a fucked up family that would do something like this in the past. Her mom has a vendetta against our family because of my uncle, my moms brother, who abandoned them for another family. She hasn’t been in my life long enough for me to be inclined to trust her. I wouldn’t even know when my dad would’ve even had the opportunity as they weren’t in much of my life growing up.
Im also not in the business of discrediting women and their experiences because I’ve also learned that even the people we love can be monsters.
I genuinely don’t know what to do. I can’t even talk to my sister because she just had a baby two months ago. This is so fucked and I want to die so badly, **I do not want to kill myself** but I would prefer Hades to any of this.
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grabitoe
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2020-01-04 22:35:14
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rapecounseling
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<es>My family and i just buried my grandma over the last couple of days so my cousins and I got together after the burial and we just kicked it and drank and was having a good time.<ee> <es>I left early because I needed to go home to pack because I leave for university tomorrow for the first time in three years.<ee> <es>I was talking to my best friend cousin who is also currently 7 and a half months pregnant and she was telling me some secrets were being spilt and that one of my cousins was raped by one of our uncles.<ee> <es>Then apparently the conversation diverted towards my father being the culpable party of this.<ee> <es>MY FATHER.<ee> <es>We were both sick in real time as she was unfolding the information to me she didn’t know who it would be until she found out. <ee> <es>I don’t know what type of proof their is or who is saying what but they are saying they are going to beat my dads ass when they see him and I just can’t allow that to happen to him if he’s guilty or innocent.<ee> <es>I can’t allow for him to walk into something like that without knowing what’s happening.<ee> <es>Except I’m not even supposed to know, so I can’t even ask my father for answers unless all of this unravels.<ee> <es>I can’t ask my cousins for an explanation because it just doesn’t seem like it would blow over well.<ee> <es>Ultimately I have planned to seek a psychologist first thing Monday so I can fucking deal with this mess but I don’t know what to do outside of that.<ee> <es>I don’t know what to believe or who to be mad at.<ee> <efs>I’ve worked so hard to love my dad that this breaks my heart to think it true.<efe> <es>I can’t believe he did it but I know that we are capable of anything if we’re left alone for long enough.<ee> <es>The other fucked up part is that everybody is so willing to believe it’s my dad because it’s easier for all of them to accept that reality over anything else.<ee> <es>This cousin is not reliable and comes from a fucked up family that would do something like this in the past.<ee> <es>Her mom has a vendetta against our family because of my uncle, my moms brother, who abandoned them for another family.<ee> <es>She hasn’t been in my life long enough for me to be inclined to trust her.<ee> <es>I wouldn’t even know when my dad would’ve even had the opportunity as they weren’t in much of my life growing up.<ee> <es>Im also not in the business of discrediting women and their experiences because I’ve also learned that even the people we love can be monsters. <ee> <es>I genuinely don’t know what to do.<ee> <es>I can’t even talk to my sister because she just had a baby two months ago.<ee> <efs>This is so fucked and I want to die so badly, **I do not want to kill myself** but I would prefer Hades to any of this.<efe>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel confused on hearing the allegations about your dad
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eotwif
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Feeling nostalgic.
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help-seeking
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I'm at least a year into recovery. I didnt mark my last day because it wasn't planned, everything I was getting was shitty and I was so tired of (basically) constantly being unwell. I had enough money for sub or a bag and got the sub then never went back.
Anyways, now that that's out of the way...
Lately I've been feeling nostalgic. I've been stuck in a hotel for work stuff and therefore limited to cable TV. There are so many shows that have reruns playing that I had binged while using (criminal minds, house, etc.) and it's just making me miss it. Being in a hotel, too, has it's own memories with using...
I'm glad I'm away from home because I am safe with no means of grabbing. And going through airport security without a bunch of bullshit is so underrated, though I still felt nervous for some reason lol Plus I'm definitely enjoying the new area more and will remember much more from this trip (which is good because it's for a training).
I just can't shake this craving right now. But I ordered some good food and am j chillin. I'm proud of where I am and can see good changes in myself, especially after perusing my journal. But... ugh.
The most fucked up bit is how I'm even feeling nostalgic for the gross parts, too. Usually remembering being sick and waiting on dude helps me dismiss any lingering cravings.. but I'm remembering now how good it felt to get that 'good to go' text, meeting dude, and instantly feeling amazing (not just well/better).
Writing this helped, so thanks to anyone who read this far. If anyone has tips on dealing with these kind of feelings, I'd greatly appreciate it.
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PoolOfTicks
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2020-01-14 23:52:43
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>I'm at least a year into recovery.<ee> <efs>I didnt mark my last day because it wasn't planned, everything I was getting was shitty and I was so tired of (basically) constantly being unwell.<efe> <es>I had enough money for sub or a bag and got the sub then never went back. <ee> Anyways, now that that's out of the way... <efs>Lately I've been feeling nostalgic.<efe> <es>I've been stuck in a hotel for work stuff and therefore limited to cable TV. <ee> <es>There are so many shows that have reruns playing that I had binged while using (criminal minds, house, etc.) and it's just making me miss it.<ee> <es>Being in a hotel, too, has it's own memories with using... <ee> <es>I'm glad I'm away from home because I am safe with no means of grabbing.<ee> <efs>And going through airport security without a bunch of bullshit is so underrated, though I still felt nervous for some reason lol Plus I'm definitely enjoying the new area more and will remember much more from this trip (which is good because it's for a training). <efe> <efs>I just can't shake this craving right now.<efe> <es>But I ordered some good food and am j chillin'.<ee> <es>I'm proud of where I am and can see good changes in myself, especially after perusing my journal.<ee> But... ugh. <efs>The most fucked up bit is how I'm even feeling nostalgic for the gross parts, too.<efe> <es>Usually remembering being sick and waiting on dude helps me dismiss any lingering cravings.. but I'm remembering now how good it felt to get that 'good to go' text, meeting dude, and instantly feeling amazing (not just well/better). <ee> Writing this helped, so thanks to anyone who read this far. <rs>If anyone has tips on dealing with these kind of feelings, I'd greatly appreciate it.<re>
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elkl8g
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Should I see a therapist or take an antidepressant
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help-seeking
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Right now, I don’t have a job, friends, a car or any social life to speak of, but I have savings that keep me going. The most productive I am on any given day is just going to the gym (trying to lose weight), maybe applying to 1 or 2 jobs on Indeed, and mindlessly scrolling through dating apps. I haven’t even been able to clean up my room or do laundry over the last few weeks. I had a date over the weekend which went absolutely terribly because I’m so bad at everything, and I’m too scared to go out to bars and meet people.
I’ve tried counseling through my college in the past but it didn’t help much. For a long time I avoided antidepressants because I believed my problem was purely cognitive and a lot of people told me I was being irresponsible for not getting medicated.
Now that I’ve graduated from college and am sort of living on my own, i don’t know if therapy and antidepressants will help me muster up the ability to get through this or what will help. Any thoughts?
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surfeit_refuse
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2020-01-08 00:28:12
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getting_over_it
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<es>Right now, I don’t have a job, friends, a car or any social life to speak of, but I have savings that keep me going.<ee> <es>The most productive I am on any given day is just going to the gym (trying to lose weight), maybe applying to 1 or 2 jobs on Indeed, and mindlessly scrolling through dating apps.<ee> <es>I haven’t even been able to clean up my room or do laundry over the last few weeks.<ee> <es>I had a date over the weekend which went absolutely terribly because I’m so bad at everything, and I’m too scared to go out to bars and meet people.<ee> <es>I’ve tried counseling through my college in the past but it didn’t help much.<ee> <es>For a long time I avoided antidepressants because I believed my problem was purely cognitive and a lot of people told me I was being irresponsible for not getting medicated.<ee> <es>Now that I’ve graduated from college and am sort of living on my own, i don’t know if therapy and antidepressants will help me muster up the ability to get through this or what will help.<ee> Any thoughts?
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How did X make you feel?
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being unable to do anything except gym
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are unable to go to therapy or take antidepressants
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f18swp
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Tips for dealing with anger in kids?
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help-seeking
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My step son is 10. As a result of a few things he has a very difficult time dealing with anger that he feels quite often.
He does not and will not play sports so unfortunately I can’t help him release it that way.
Any suggestions for things that can help him deal with the anger would be appreciated.
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curiouscreator
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2020-02-09 13:45:13
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Anger
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<es>My step son is 10. As a result of a few things he has a very difficult time dealing with anger that he feels quite often. <ee> <es>He does not and will not play sports so unfortunately I can’t help him release it that way. <ee> <rs>Any suggestions for things that can help him deal with the anger would be appreciated.<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what makes him angry
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How did X make you feel?
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your step son's anger
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eiptf9
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Instant infatuation.
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survey
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Do you guys ever meet someone, if only for a quick couple minutes, and suddenly become OBSESSIVELY infatuated with them?
I met this girl at this party the other night and I can NOT stop thinking about her. They’re not casual, passive thoughts either. I literally wake up thinking about her and stay up, despite being tired and often only sleeping for 3-4 hours.
I don’t know if this is BPD related, but I know that this isn’t exactly “healthy” or perhaps normal.
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Komorxbi
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2020-01-01 23:44:11
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BPD
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<es>Do you guys ever meet someone, if only for a quick couple minutes, and suddenly become OBSESSIVELY infatuated with them?<ee> <es>I met this girl at this party the other night and I can NOT stop thinking about her.<ee> <es>They’re not casual, passive thoughts either.<ee> <es>I literally wake up thinking about her and stay up, despite being tired and often only sleeping for 3-4 hours.<ee> <es>I don’t know if this is BPD related, but I know that this isn’t exactly “healthy” or perhaps normal.<ee>
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How did X make you feel?
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obsessively thinking about the girl
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are obsessed about the girl
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ensn6g
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How to handle feelings of snapping?
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help-seeking
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My anger comes in bursts and just comes out. I end up snapping and using a rude tone and saying hurtful things.
I ended up snapping at a friend and said "don't talk to me" really rudely. I admitted I was at fault and apologized but the friend would not accept that I couldn't control me snapping. He thinks I made an active choice but I don't believe that. Him saying this has really rocked my world and I am a bit hurt by this.
However, I want to be able to manage the feeling of feeling like I'm about a snap. I am 22 and I think I used to be worse. When I get in the feelings I try to just push it out and find a place for myself and it usually works but this incident took place in a full car where I was hit with my friend play fighting with the person next to me (I was in the middle seat).
I don't agree with his stance of snapping is a choice but I would like advice on other methods and would appreciate the help.
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blueeeV
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2020-01-12 20:10:55
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Anger
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<es>My anger comes in bursts and just comes out.<ee> <es>I end up snapping and using a rude tone and saying hurtful things.<ee> <es>I ended up snapping at a friend and said "don't talk to me" really rudely.<ee> <es>I admitted I was at fault and apologized but the friend would not accept that I couldn't control me snapping.<ee> <es>He thinks I made an active choice but I don't believe that.<ee> <efs>Him saying this has really rocked my world and I am a bit hurt by this.<efe> <rs><efs>However, I want to be able to manage the feeling of feeling like I'm about a snap.<efe><re> I am 22 and I think I used to be worse. <es>When I get in the feelings I try to just push it out and find a place for myself and it usually works but this incident took place in a full car where I was hit with my friend play fighting with the person next to me (I was in the middle seat).<ee> <rs>I don't agree with his stance of snapping is a choice but I would like advice on other methods and would appreciate the help.<re>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ejuhfm
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Property Taxes in Meridian, ID
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chitchat
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carlyduckettpjm
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2020-01-04 09:14:46
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selfhelp
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eui7s5
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Anger management/ Batterer intervention
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survey
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Has anyone ever pushed therapy on their SO? Did it end up helping?
Background - we have lived together since Feb. 2017. There have been three occasions at which things have sort of gotten physical but not quite. Once where he slapped a bottle out of my hand, once where he jerked a couch cushion out from behind my head and then today where he just followed me to every room, pushed himself against me and screamed and yelled at me that I needed to “listen to him”. Today was by far the worst..
I told him he needed to go to anger management and he agreed but hours later told me he could work on himself by himselfZ I feel now it’s two battles. One just to get him to see he has a problem and then to actually try to get help for that problem.
Is there anyone here who insisted on therapy for their SO and SO went and things got better?
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bettyh_draper
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2020-01-27 03:39:14
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domesticviolence
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<rs>Has anyone ever pushed therapy on their SO?<re> <rs>Did it end up helping?<re> <es>Background - we have lived together since Feb. 2017.<ee> <es>There have been three occasions at which things have sort of gotten physical but not quite.<ee> <es>Once where he slapped a bottle out of my hand, once where he jerked a couch cushion out from behind my head and then today where he just followed me to every room, pushed himself against me and screamed and yelled at me that I needed to “listen to him”.<ee> <es>Today was by far the worst.. <ee> <es>I told him he needed to go to anger management and he agreed but hours later told me he could work on himself by himself.<ee> <efs>I feel now it’s two battles.<efe> <es>One just to get him to see he has a problem and then to actually try to get help for that problem.<ee> <rs>Is there anyone here who insisted on therapy for their SO and SO went and things got better?<re>
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how you feel about your SO's anger issues
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eibxsn
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Anyone else have super high (or low) expectations for every holiday/birthday and always is dissapointed no matter how it turns out?
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survey
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I set very low nye expectations as ive NEVER been out to celebrate it, but i figured if I was ever going to celebrate nye it would be 2020.
Every little triumph I had set for today was shit on and im in bed about in tears because once again im stuck in the house with nothing to do.
Im treating everyone around me like shit.
It sucks not even knowing how to feel right now, I feel guilty because im sure theres plenty of people out there in a way worse situation but at the same time I just wanted to do something for myself.
Im at a low ass point right now and i cant bring myself to full on cry about something so stupid.
Dont know why im about to post this stupid ass complaint, maybe someone can relate 🤷♀️
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inuttedinyourdad
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2020-01-01 01:17:01
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BPD
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<es>Anyone else have super high (or low) expectations for every holiday/birthday and always is dissapointed no matter how it turns out?<ee> <es>I set very low nye expectations as ive NEVER been out to celebrate it, but i figured if I was ever going to celebrate nye it would be 2020. <ee> <es>Every little triumph I had set for today was shit on and im in bed about in tears because once again im stuck in the house with nothing to do. <ee> <es>Im treating everyone around me like shit. <ee> <efs>It sucks not even knowing how to feel right now, I feel guilty because im sure theres plenty of people out there in a way worse situation but at the same time I just wanted to do something for myself. <efe> <efs>Im at a low ass point right now and i cant bring myself to full on cry about something so stupid.<efe> Dont know why im about to post this stupid ass complaint, maybe someone can relate
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you didn't go to out to celebrate new year eve
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eoww78
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Is all this normal?
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help-seeking
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Ok so I was mad Ofc and I finally calmed myself down and did not have an anger attack. So I’m very proud of myself. That’s big for me. I’ve done it before but not much. Every time I’ve done it I always feel very very bad after. I feel so depressed and drained and I just wanna go out and get stoned cause feels like that’s all that’ll make me happy. I get like that a lot after I’m mad even if I didn’t manage it. Some times even worse. I get depressed then mad or mad then depressed a lot. Was also diagnosed with depression so could also be that. Just wanna know if anyone else feels like this? Cause I just feel like I wanna disappear. Idek how I’m alive in general. I’ve attempted before but hasn’t worked. Won’t do it again I hope at least. I just can’t stop crying. I can’t stop thinking about things I’ve done and people I hurt. It hurts no one understands how badly it hurts. And that woman hurt me so bad can’t stop thinking about her. What’s wrong with her? Why would you even think of doing that to someone who’s so much younger than you? And I feel like I ruined her daughter. She used to be so happy then she ran off became a prostitute and heroin addict. I really wish I could get high rn. I’m so fucking sad. I wish I could have her back. The old her but I’m not good for her. I’m not good enough for anyone. I’m so mean. I can’t stop crying. It’s been 5 months and I still cry over her everyday. Holy crap she was so pretty and sweet and funny. She was perfect. She’s everything you could of imagined. She was stubborn at times but her stubbornness was adorable. I wish I could just go back in time and tell her I love her and hug her one last time. But her stupid moms too much of an abusive hoe. Idk what to do anymore. Why am I not over her? I shouldn’t like her anymore. She moved on why can’t I?
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angers-a-liar
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2020-01-15 03:45:35
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Anger
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<es>Ok so I was mad Ofc and I finally calmed myself down and did not have an anger attack.<ee> So I’m very proud of myself. That’s big for me. I’ve done it before but not much. <efs>Every time I’ve done it I always feel very very bad after.<efe> <efs>I feel so depressed and drained and I just wanna go out and get stoned cause feels like that’s all that’ll make me happy.<efe> <efs>I get like that a lot after I’m mad even if I didn’t manage it.<efe> <efs>Some times even worse.<efe> <efs>I get depressed then mad or mad then depressed a lot.<efe> <es>Was also diagnosed with depression so could also be that.<ee> <rs>Just wanna know if anyone else feels like this?<re> <efs>Cause I just feel like I wanna disappear.<efe> Idek how I’m alive in general. I’ve attempted before but hasn’t worked. Won’t do it again I hope at least. <efs>I just can’t stop crying.<efe> <efs>I can’t stop thinking about things I’ve done and people I hurt.<efe> <efs>It hurts no one understands how badly it hurts.<efe> <es>And that woman hurt me so bad can’t stop thinking about her.<ee> What’s wrong with her? <es>Why would you even think of doing that to someone who’s so much younger than you?<ee> <efs>And I feel like I ruined her daughter.<efe> <es>She used to be so happy then she ran off became a prostitute and heroin addict.<ee> I really wish I could get high rn. <efs>I’m so fucking sad.<efe> <rs>I wish I could have her back.<re> The old her but I’m not good for her. I’m not good enough for anyone. <es>I’m so mean.<ee> I can’t stop crying. <es>It’s been 5 months and I still cry over her everyday.<ee> Holy crap she was so pretty and sweet and funny. She was perfect. She’s everything you could of imagined. She was stubborn at times but her stubbornness was adorable. <rs>I wish I could just go back in time and tell her I love her and hug her one last time.<re> <es>But her stupid moms too much of an abusive hoe.<ee> Idk what to do anymore. <rs>Why am I not over her?<re> I shouldn’t like her anymore. <rs>She moved on why can’t I?<re>
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what the woman did
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what would help you move on
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suicidal
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exw8ps
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My pajamas always fall down every once in a while every time when I go to sleep which makes me feel weird like that’s a different thing than my anus is just like I don’t know like that’s a weird feeling like I feel so different don’t know if something happend that night or not but I’m sure it was
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1b
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When I fall asleep my pants be half way down every once in a while and i really think it’s because of the reaction on how I went to that dudes house and got a high feeling that something happend I think about that night everyday why that happend then I went to the doctor to get a exam I was scared soons he stuck his finger in there I’m like oh no get back now then I felt weird about that ion know man is I really think he Assaulted me doe man ink don’t know every time I go to sleep every once in a while even in my own house my pants go half way down my waist bro ion know wat it be man I highly think he did then he lied about being gay trynna lure me to the other side
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ThisIsReal297
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2020-02-02 22:10:12
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rapecounseling
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<es>My pajamas always fall down every once in a while every time when I go to sleep.<ee> <efs>It makes me feel weird like that’s a different thing than my anus is just like I don’t know like that’s a weird feeling like I feel so different don’t know if something happend that night or not but I’m sure it was.<efe> <es>When I fall asleep my pants be half way down every once in a while and i really think it’s because of the reaction on how I went to that dudes house and got a high feeling that something happend I think about that night everyday why that happend then I went to the doctor to get a exam I was scared soons he stuck his finger in there I’m like oh no get back now then I felt weird about that ion know man is I really think he Assaulted me doe man ink don’t know every time I go to sleep every once in a while even in my own house my pants go half way down my waist bro ion know wat it be man I highly think he did then he lied about being gay trynna lure me to the other side<ee>
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your pajamas falling down makes you feel weird
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ei70p6
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I didnt send those.
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0
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Theres texts sent to someone that I have no recollection of writing.. was I in a dissociative state that was that bad that I dont remember? Did someone hack my phone? I feel like I'm going insane.
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Creativ3_art1st
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2019-12-31 18:49:25
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BPD
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<es>Theres texts sent to someone that I have no recollection of writing..<ee> <rs>was I in a dissociative state that was that bad that I dont remember?<re> <rs>Did someone hack my phone?<re> <efs>I feel like I'm going insane.<efe>
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how you feel about having no recollection of writing the texts
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ek5zk3
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I can’t deal with it anymore
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help-seeking
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I’m in a long distance relationship so I can only see my boyfriend if I stay at his house or he comes to mine. His family recently impulsively adopted an extremely poorly behaved dog. I’m currently at his house where she has completely scratched up my skin, had bitten my toes and one finger so badly it’s swollen, and purposely targets me and jumps on me all the time. Because of what happened to me, I’m terrified of anything or anyone who has previously done physical harm to me and every time she comes near me I sit there shaking. My boyfriend doesn’t handle her well because this is his first dog and she only attacks me, not him so he doesn’t feel the need to put her in the crate until he’s the one being targeted. Tonight was the final straw for me. She was completely calm laying across my lap then suddenly starts growing at me, attacks my arm, jumps on top of me while I’m hunched over, trying to shield my face, and continues trying to bite me until she’s dragged off of me. A half an hour later I’m still shaking and crying because it brought me back to how I felt when I was assaulted. Everyone seems to think I’m overreacting, despite knowing what happened to me so I told my boyfriend that that’s it. I cannot come back to his house until she gets better obedience classes and stops attacking people. Am I overreacting in the moment or do you think this is completely justifiable? He’s frustrated with me for making that decision and I don’t even know what to do anymore. I’m sick of being attacked over literally doing nothing but this would mean I don’t get to see him or his family as much.
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k8iew24
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2020-01-05 01:34:59
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ptsd
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<es>I’m in a long distance relationship so I can only see my boyfriend if I stay at his house or he comes to mine. <ee><es>His family recently impulsively adopted an extremely poorly behaved dog.<ee> <es>I’m currently at his house where she has completely scratched up my skin, had bitten my toes and one finger so badly it’s swollen, and purposely targets me and jumps on me all the time.<ee> <efs>Because of what happened to me, I’m terrified of anything or anyone who has previously done physical harm to me and every time she comes near me I sit there shaking.<efe><es> My boyfriend doesn’t handle her well because this is his first dog and she only attacks me, not him so he doesn’t feel the need to put her in the crate until he’s the one being targeted.<ee> <es>Tonight was the final straw for me.<ee> <es>She was completely calm laying across my lap then suddenly starts growing at me, attacks my arm, jumps on top of me while I’m hunched over, trying to shield my face, and continues trying to bite me until she’s dragged off of me.<ee> <efs>A half an hour later I’m still shaking and crying because it brought me back to how I felt when I was assaulted.<efe> <es>Everyone seems to think I’m overreacting, despite knowing what happened to me so I told my boyfriend that that’s it.<ee> <es>I cannot come back to his house until she gets better obedience classes and stops attacking people.<ee> <rs>Am I overreacting in the moment or do you think this is completely justifiable?<re> <es>He’s frustrated with me for making that decision and I don’t even know what to do anymore.<ee> <efs>I’m sick of being attacked over literally doing nothing but this would mean I don’t get to see him or his family as much.<efe>
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what would help you get over the attack
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eibjqu
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Everybody has left me
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1b
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rant
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I don't know why I am making this post. I guess I just kinda need to vent? I dunno.
I just feel alone. Everyone has left me. It is basically the story of my life. I start to talk to someone. We talk often for a few weeks. Then they just disappear. They move away. I guess it is my fault that I am annoying. I just don't see a reason to fight with life anymore. No one cares. I think Imma just end it. I can't take going to school, not talking to anyone then coming back home, unmotivated to do anything, just watching pointless videos and daydreaming about stuff that's never going to happen.
I miss the times when I told people that I had no friends, but I actually had people who cared about me. Now what I once said is actual reality. I miss being able to share my thoughts with someone. It somehow gave me the drive to battle the things life threw at me.
I guess life just doesn't want me. I don't have much time left. I guess I will just try not to annoy people until it is time. Eh...
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Fellay
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2020-01-01 00:43:04
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depression
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I don't know why I am making this post. <rs>I guess I just kinda need to vent?<re> I dunno. <efs>I just feel alone.<efe> <es>Everyone has left me.<ee> It is basically the story of my life. <es>I start to talk to someone.<ee> <es>We talk often for a few weeks.<ee> <es>Then they just disappear.<ee> <es>They move away.<ee> <efs>I guess it is my fault that I am annoying.<efe> <efs>I just don't see a reason to fight with life anymore.<efe> No one cares. I think Imma just end it. <efs>I can't take going to school, not talking to anyone then coming back home, unmotivated to do anything, just watching pointless videos and daydreaming about stuff that's never going to happen.<efe> <efs>I miss the times when I told people that I had no friends, but I actually had people who cared about me.<efe> Now what I once said is actual reality. <efs>I miss being able to share my thoughts with someone.<efe> It somehow gave me the drive to battle the things life threw at me. I guess life just doesn't want me. I don't have much time left. I guess I will just try not to annoy people until it is time. Eh...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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what would help you overcome this feeling of loneliness
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ejtn87
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The most deceptively easiest part of AA for me has been to abstain from alcohol
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0
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rant
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Living life on life's terms is the real gauntlet no matter how much i surrender and try to go with it.
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Ionisbad
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2020-01-04 07:36:37
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<es>The most deceptively easiest part of AA for me has been to abstain from alcohol<ee> <es>Living life on life's terms is the real gauntlet no matter how much i surrender and try to go with it.<ee>
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you alcohol usage
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How did X make you feel?
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abstaining from alcohol
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What do you need help with now that X?
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abstaining from alcohol has been deceptively easy for you
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ej3x94
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ALL the time
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0
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chitchat
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888Japan
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2020-01-02 20:41:14
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socialanxiety
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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el7t1n
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I (28f) had to break up with my boyfriend (33m) because he crossed a boundary and I am completely heart broken.
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1b
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help-seeking
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My boyfriend and I have been together for four months. Around the 1st month, I found out that he has been addicted to muscle relaxers since high school. As time went on in our relationship, I told him I would support his sobriety. He’s an amazing man when he’s sober. He has been the best boyfriend I have ever had: cooks for me, listens to me, cares for me, and also thinks about my needs. When he’s high though, he is ridiculously clumsy, acts very un-intelligent, and slurs his words. He isn’t him when he’s high.
When I first realized he truly had an addiction problem, I went to nar-anon, a group that is here to support those who have loved ones with addiction. I learned a big thing there, which was that boundaries are very important with an addict. If you don’t stick with your boundaries, addicts tend to not believe the person and it becomes a more toxic relationship. I decided to be open and honest with him, and that I would break up with him if:
A.) He was high around me
B.) if he lied to me about using
He did both of these things. He also hasn’t truly made any steps to get better. He hasn’t gone to NA or rehab since we’ve been together. I can’t help to be heart broken right now, because he is an amazing man. But I also know he can’t commit to a relationship if he’s not ready to work on his sobriety. Guys, I’m very shaken up. I know I did the right thing by keeping my boundaries and not enabling him. But I also feel immense sadness because I don’t want him to ever think he doesn’t deserve love and happiness. He deserves the world, and he deserves to live not being dependent on muscle relaxers for happiness.
He was so high that he couldn’t drive home earlier. He had work in the morning and his car is still at my place. I plan to get him in the morning and bringing him to his car so he can drive to work. After work, I plan to fully break up with him, when he’s sober enough to fully talk about it.
Anyways, I wanted to ask you guys...did I do the right thing as a loved one of an addict? Was keeping my word what he needs? I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, but I would like to hear from people with experience.
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Dannixfresh
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2020-01-07 06:42:46
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>My boyfriend and I have been together for four months.<ee> <es>Around the 1st month, I found out that he has been addicted to muscle relaxers since high school.<ee> <es>As time went on in our relationship, I told him I would support his sobriety.<ee> <es>He’s an amazing man when he’s sober.<ee> <es>He has been the best boyfriend I have ever had: cooks for me, listens to me, cares for me, and also thinks about my needs.<ee> <es>When he’s high though, he is ridiculously clumsy, acts very un-intelligent, and slurs his words.<ee> <es>He isn’t him when he’s high. <ee> <es>When I first realized he truly had an addiction problem, I went to nar-anon, a group that is here to support those who have loved ones with addiction.<ee> <es>I learned a big thing there, which was that boundaries are very important with an addict.<ee> <es>If you don’t stick with your boundaries, addicts tend to not believe the person and it becomes a more toxic relationship.<ee> <es>I decided to be open and honest with him, and that I would break up with him if: A.) He was high around me B.) if he lied to me about using<ee> <es>He did both of these things.<ee> <es>He also hasn’t truly made any steps to get better.<ee> <es>He hasn’t gone to NA or rehab since we’ve been together.<ee> <es>I can’t help to be heart broken right now, because he is an amazing man.<ee> <es>But I also know he can’t commit to a relationship if he’s not ready to work on his sobriety.<ee> <efs>Guys, I’m very shaken up.<efe> <es>I know I did the right thing by keeping my boundaries and not enabling him.<ee> <efs>But I also feel immense sadness because I don’t want him to ever think he doesn’t deserve love and happiness.<efe> <es>He deserves the world, and he deserves to live not being dependent on muscle relaxers for happiness.<ee> <es>He was so high that he couldn’t drive home earlier.<ee> <es>He had work in the morning and his car is still at my place.<ee> <es>I plan to get him in the morning and bringing him to his car so he can drive to work.<ee> <es>After work, I plan to fully break up with him, when he’s sober enough to fully talk about it.<ee> <rs>Anyways, I wanted to ask you guys...did I do the right thing as a loved one of an addict?<re> <rs>Was keeping my word what he needs?<re> <rs>I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, but I would like to hear from people with experience.<re>
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ei8qku
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What do you struggle to accept an article on self acceptance and mental health
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0
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chitchat
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“What do you struggle to accept?” by Sandy Pace https://link.medium.com/EQuAEEz3O2
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Sandy_Pace
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2019-12-31 20:57:56
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selfhelp
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“What do you struggle to accept?” by Sandy Pace https://link.medium.com/EQuAEEz3O2
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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Not a post
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epcimw
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What does it mean to “move yourself out of your way.”?
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survey
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On a Joe Rogan podcast I heard something about moving yourself out of the way. They were both talking how important this was for success. What does that even mean and how do you move yourself out of your way and why would you not want control of yourself?
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IThunkDeeply
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2020-01-16 02:08:13
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selfhelp
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On a Joe Rogan podcast I heard something about moving yourself out of the way. They were both talking how important this was for success. What does that even mean and how do you move yourself out of your way and why would you not want control of yourself?
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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f42f1g
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My girlfriends parents are abusing her but she doesn't want to call the cops
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1b
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help-seeking
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My girlfriends parents are abusing her but she doesent want to call the cops. So today my girlfriend called me when crying saying that her parents pulled her hair out and punched her in the ribs. I told her she should call the cops but she is refusing because her grandmother who she actually likes is living off of her parents money, what should I do?
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ragingposts
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2020-02-15 01:35:19
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domesticviolence
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<es>My girlfriends parents are abusing her but she doesent want to call the cops.<ee> <es>So today my girlfriend called me when crying saying that her parents pulled her hair out and punched her in the ribs.<ee> <es>I told her she should call the cops but she is refusing because her grandmother who she actually likes is living off of her parents money.<ee> <rs>what should I do?<re>
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How did X make you feel?
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your girlfriend's parents abusing her
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what would help your girlfriend deal with hear parents
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era8ea
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A week since the abuse
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1b
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rant
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I am having a hard time realizing what has happened. We didn’t break up- he just attacked me and I decided it was over. Now I’m experiencing new emotions/ feelings...
My partner attacked me when he was drunk so now if I’m around a man who is belligerently drunk I start to get agitated. If anyone tries to demand too much of me I get irritated. And there are times when I want to be absolutely alone.
I’m trying to be respectful of his things even if he wasn’t respectful of my space-but I just want to throw out all his things. To top it off there are times when I’m just around too many people (crowds) that I start to get panicky and sweaty. Finally, I’m finding that there are times when my whole body starts shaking and I start to cry or have a panic attack.
My abuser is also going around and telling people that I broke his foot and choked him?! He was the one who choked me. He was the one who brutalized my body and infiltrated my mind with his constant verbal assault. Ugh!
Now I’m worried he’s going to try to assassinate my character and have to worry about talking to my attorney.
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traciegoeswild
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2020-01-20 07:57:16
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domesticviolence
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<es>I am having a hard time realizing what has happened.<ee> <es>We didn’t break up- he just attacked me and I decided it was over.<ee> <efs>Now I’m experiencing new emotions/ feelings...<efe> <es>My partner attacked me when he was drunk so now if I’m around a man who is belligerently drunk I start to get agitated.<ee> <es>If anyone tries to demand too much of me I get irritated. <ee><es>And there are times when I want to be absolutely alone. <ee> <es>I’m trying to be respectful of his things even if he wasn’t respectful of my space-but I just want to throw out all his things.<ee> <es>To top it off there are times when I’m just around too many people (crowds) that I start to get panicky and sweaty.<ee> <es>Finally, I’m finding that there are times when my whole body starts shaking and I start to cry or have a panic attack. <ee> <es>My abuser is also going around and telling people that I broke his foot and choked him?!<ee> <es>He was the one who choked me.<ee> <es>He was the one who brutalized my body and infiltrated my mind with his constant verbal assault.<ee> Ugh! <efs>Now I’m worried he’s going to try to assassinate my character and have to worry about talking to my attorney.<efe>
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your abuser is spreading false information
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eibhgl
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I was born in 2000, maybe 2020 is finally the year I will leave this place without pain
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0
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rant
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I want to fucking cry so hard but can't because of the stupid medication. I feel empty. I don't know what to do.. Lately it's been so much.
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Papier4
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2020-01-01 00:37:58
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depression
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<es>I want to fucking cry so hard but can't because of the stupid medication.<ee> <efs>I feel empty.<efe> I don't know what to do.. Lately it's been so much.
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why you want to cry
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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how the medications make you feel
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel empty after taking the medication
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emly4y
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Haven't posted in a while, I have been clean from opiates since Oct 9 2017.
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After I quit doing opiates I started to cope with alcohol. I ended up checking myself into rehab because I started suffering alchohol withdrawals. That was June 19th to July 7th of 2018. I stayed sober for 5 and a half months and then I started drinking again. I was going through a half gallon of captain Morgan a day.
Checked my back into just detox this time on July 6th of 2019. The next day I woke up a counselor woke me up and I figured I was going to meet my assigned counselor because they let you chill for a day before meeting them.(I blew a .331 when I came in). So I walk and and they tell me my dad had passed away. I call my mom and I find out it was an overdose. I hadn't talked to my dad the six months prior because I went to dinner with him on my birthday and I knew he was high. He wasn't in my life anymore. I'm 26 and my mom divorced him back in 2013.
We got the report back a month or 2 later and he had fentanyl and morphine in his system. He was only 51. That was a huge wake up call. His parents both died from alcoholism around that same age. I haven't had a drink in over 6 months and I haven't touched opiates in over 2 years. I started seeing a psychiatrist and I am on lexapro and gabapentin. I finally feel mentally stable. Just wanted to post my journey so far. Thank you for taking your time to read this :)
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Yoyoyoyoyoy7
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2020-01-10 04:38:21
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OpiatesRecovery
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After I quit doing opiates I started to cope with alcohol. I ended up checking myself into rehab because I started suffering alchohol withdrawals. That was June 19th to July 7th of 2018. I stayed sober for 5 and a half months and then I started drinking again. I was going through a half gallon of captain Morgan a day. Checked my back into just detox this time on July 6th of 2019. The next day I woke up a counselor woke me up and I figured I was going to meet my assigned counselor because they let you chill for a day before meeting them.(I blew a .331 when I came in). So I walk and and they tell me my dad had passed away. I call my mom and I find out it was an overdose. I hadn't talked to my dad the six months prior because I went to dinner with him on my birthday and I knew he was high. He wasn't in my life anymore. I'm 26 and my mom divorced him back in 2013. We got the report back a month or 2 later and he had fentanyl and morphine in his system. He was only 51. That was a huge wake up call. His parents both died from alcoholism around that same age. I haven't had a drink in over 6 months and I haven't touched opiates in over 2 years. I started seeing a psychiatrist and I am on lexapro and gabapentin. I finally feel mentally stable. Just wanted to post my journey so far. Thank you for taking your time to read this :)
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positive
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eip1o0
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Where is a relatively safe spot on the arm?
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help-seeking
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I always cut my left lower arm, near my elbow. The inner side. There is a visible vein nearby, so I always try to ignore that one. Can I keep cutting there, or are there arteries there? I just want the pain, the sensation, I don’t want to bleed out.
If this is against the rules, please keep in mind that this can save a life.
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PM_ME_PET1TE_GIRLS
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2020-01-01 22:45:21
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selfharm
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<es>I always cut my left lower arm, near my elbow.<ee> <es>The inner side.<ee> <es>There is a visible vein nearby, so I always try to ignore that one.<ee> <rs>Can I keep cutting there, or are there arteries there?<rs> <rs>I just want the pain, the sensation, I don’t want to bleed out.<re> If this is against the rules, please keep in mind that this can save a life.
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why you cut yourself
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How did X make you feel?
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cutting yourself
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ekylou
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A painful thought..
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1a
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rant
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Ruup_Cinacchi
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2020-01-06 19:07:51
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sad
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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title
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ekhw6p
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Reassuring words please !!
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1a
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help-seeking
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I've decided to take 2 gap years before university , so that I can pay off my uni debt , as I didnt really want to leave with it hanging over my head.
The downside being I'm going to be older than everyone , and I know I shouldn't care ,but at the same time I feel a bit bad ?
Everyone I know will graduate 2 years earlier than me.etc etc
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fleathkelpten
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2020-01-05 19:41:32
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selfhelp
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<es>I've decided to take 2 gap years before university , so that I can pay off my uni debt , as I didnt really want to leave with it hanging over my head.<ee> <efs>The downside being I'm going to be older than everyone , and I know I shouldn't care ,but at the same time I feel a bit bad ?<efe> <es>Everyone I know will graduate 2 years earlier than me.etc etc<ee>
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you feel bad that everyone will graduate earlier
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f61h6w
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What to expect in court?
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0
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help-seeking
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My ex has his trial coming up in a month and I am waiting for subpoena. Any advice? What to expect? I’m scared and nervous. We are in MS and he was arrested for simple domestic. I have minimal bruising and pictures, but it still happened after all. What can I expect as the outcome? What usually happens? Could this be flipped on me somehow? Advice would be so appreciated
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Jejsiejwjwjbababsbs
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2020-02-18 23:57:15
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domesticviolence
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<es>My ex has his trial coming up in a month and I am waiting for subpoena.<ee> <rs>Any advice?<re> <rs>What to expect?<re> <efs>I’m scared and nervous.<efe> <es>We are in MS and he was arrested for simple domestic.<ee> <es>I have minimal bruising and pictures, but it still happened after all.<ee> <rs>What can I expect as the outcome?<re> <rs>What usually happens?<re> <rs>Could this be flipped on me somehow?<re> <rs>Advice would be so appreciated<re>
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ei6xw2
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Lately I am touch starved and love starved
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0
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rant
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Like the title says, I’m touch starved and love starved lmao. I always beg for hugs and play it off fine and pretend to act like a child so I can get some. I always ask the kids if they love me and casually tell my parents I love them. I sing to myself that people love me and act egotistical saying everyone loves me and that I’m beautiful. It helps a little but it’s not working so well.
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CINUmuiicoffee
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2019-12-31 18:43:46
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depression
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<es>Like the title says, I’m touch starved and love starved lmao.<ee> <es>I always beg for hugs and play it off fine and pretend to act like a child so I can get some.<ee> <es>I always ask the kids if they love me and casually tell my parents I love them.<ee> <es>I sing to myself that people love me and act egotistical saying everyone loves me and that I’m beautiful.<ee> <efs>It helps a little but it’s not working so well.<efe>
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how you feel being love starved
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel love deprived
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eiun6b
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The ogre (me) has fallen in love with the princess!!!!
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1a
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rant
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Fourteen years and this is the first time I’ve acknowledged I have a crush, mainly bc I’m gay and didn’t know girls could like girls but whatever.
So yeah, I didn’t even know I liked her until my friend excitedly messaged me saying this really pretty and cool girl said she has a crush on her. And I felt weirdly jealous of my friend. Then I was like “oh shit I like her” (the princess not my friend)
And they’ll probably get together and have a really long and cute relationship knowing my friends luck with dating, (seriously every gf and bf she’s had lasts for months and they always look perfect together) and you know I’m kinda sad.
Like really sad and empty. I hate this feeling so fucking much. And I know that I’ll have to see countless posts of my best friend and her together and act like nothings wrong. Because I love my friend so much, I would do anything for her and put her happiness over mine all the time.
It’s not like I even stood a chance with her though, she probably hates me and I’m not lucky in the genes department (I look like a rat and a frog)
But you know, I’m still sad. Like that’s my best friend just going out and living her life, dating people, flirting with the most perfect people in the world and leaving me behind.
My friend would never do anything to hurt me. Ever. And I know if I said that I like her she would probably give everything up for me, and I can’t do that to her. She deserves to be happy.
I mean, she’s smart, funny, charismatic, pretty and social. No reason why people wouldn’t fall for her. But I can’t socialise normally, don’t ever show weakness or talk about my feelings and can’t make a joke for the life of me. But “oh no that doesn’t matter! You’re so smart and brave!!!!!” According to my friends, because they’re nice and don’t want me to feel like trash, but what the hell is getting top of science going to do if all I am is far from normal.
I don’t even know why I have friends. I look mean and don’t talk to people and always get scars because I have too much pride to back down in a competition. I sound unbearable and I’m pretty sure I am. I want to stop but whenever I *dont* get a perfect score or don’t win something, everyone in my class loses their shit and makes fun of me. So yeah, perfect scores means people don’t talk to me and I don’t like it when people talk to me.
I want to cry I mean my friend looked so happy and was so excited (we were face timing) and I don’t want to ruin that. They talk to each other everyday and blow up the comment sections on each other’s posts, it’s adorable. I just feel like shit. What the fuck is feelings anyway.
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Effective-Vanilla
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2020-01-02 06:34:34
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sad
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<es>Fourteen years and this is the first time I’ve acknowledged I have a crush, mainly bc I’m gay and didn’t know girls could like girls but whatever. <ee> <es>So yeah, I didn’t even know I liked her until my friend excitedly messaged me saying this really pretty and cool girl said she has a crush on her.<ee> <efs>And I felt weirdly jealous of my friend.<efe> <es>Then I was like “oh shit I like her” (the princess not my friend) <ee> <efs>And they’ll probably get together and have a really long and cute relationship knowing my friends luck with dating, (seriously every gf and bf she’s had lasts for months and they always look perfect together) and you know I’m kinda sad.<efe> <efs>Like really sad and empty.<efe> <efs>I hate this feeling so fucking much.<efe> <es>And I know that I’ll have to see countless posts of my best friend and her together and act like nothings wrong.<ee> Because I love my friend so much, I would do anything for her and put her happiness over mine all the time. <es>It’s not like I even stood a chance with her though, she probably hates me and I’m not lucky in the genes department (I look like a rat and a frog) <ee> <efs>But you know, I’m still sad.<efe> <es>Like that’s my best friend just going out and living her life, dating people, flirting with the most perfect people in the world and leaving me behind.<ee> My friend would never do anything to hurt me. Ever. And I know if I said that I like her she would probably give everything up for me, and I can’t do that to her. She deserves to be happy. I mean, she’s smart, funny, charismatic, pretty and social. No reason why people wouldn’t fall for her. <es>But I can’t socialise normally, don’t ever show weakness or talk about my feelings and can’t make a joke for the life of me.<ee> <es>But “oh no that doesn’t matter! You’re so smart and brave!!!!!”<ee> <es>According to my friends, because they’re nice and don’t want me to feel like trash, but what the hell is getting top of science going to do if all I am is far from normal.<ee> <es>I don’t even know why I have friends.<ee> <es>I look mean and don’t talk to people and always get scars because I have too much pride to back down in a competition.<ee> <es>I sound unbearable and I’m pretty sure I am.<ee> <es>I want to stop but whenever I *dont* get a perfect score or don’t win something, everyone in my class loses their shit and makes fun of me.<ee> <efs>So yeah, perfect scores means people don’t talk to me and I don’t like it when people talk to me.<efe> <efs>I want to cry I mean my friend looked so happy and was so excited (we were face timing) and I don’t want to ruin that.<efe> <es>They talk to each other everyday and blow up the comment sections on each other’s posts, it’s adorable.<ee> <efs>I just feel like shit.<efe> What the fuck is feelings anyway.
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you feel jealous about your friend's relationship
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ept0br
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90 Days Today 26(F)
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0
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chitchat
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I absolutely LOVE who I am sober! I’m forever grateful to AA for providing me a life I never thought was possible (or much less that I thought I deserved). Cleaning up a lot of wreckage from my past, I have a DUI charge and an Assault charge. When I meet people now they call me a “ray of sunshine”, absolutely melts my heart every time I hear it. When I was drinking and using I was such an unpleasant person; anxious, depressed, angry, suicidal, manipulative, constantly starting fights, verbally and physically abusive. When I talk about it now people laugh and say they absolutely cannot imagine me like that. It’s to the point where I don’t recognize myself, but in a good way! These days I smile everywhere I go and at everyone I see, I have manners, I help whenever I can, I try to always be kind and I’m in touch with my Higher Power. I am mending my relationship with my family, I have a best friend who is also in the program and my God it’s a healthy friendship! Who’d a thunk!? I hit a meeting everyday, I have a sponsor and I’m working the steps. Every day is not perfect, not even close, but I get to choose how I react. And these days I react with Love. No matter what I don’t pick up! God bless AA and all of you lovelies!
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sobersunshine_
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2020-01-17 01:12:57
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alcoholicsanonymous
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I absolutely LOVE who I am sober! I’m forever grateful to AA for providing me a life I never thought was possible (or much less that I thought I deserved). Cleaning up a lot of wreckage from my past, I have a DUI charge and an Assault charge. When I meet people now they call me a “ray of sunshine”, absolutely melts my heart every time I hear it. When I was drinking and using I was such an unpleasant person; anxious, depressed, angry, suicidal, manipulative, constantly starting fights, verbally and physically abusive. When I talk about it now people laugh and say they absolutely cannot imagine me like that. It’s to the point where I don’t recognize myself, but in a good way! These days I smile everywhere I go and at everyone I see, I have manners, I help whenever I can, I try to always be kind and I’m in touch with my Higher Power. I am mending my relationship with my family, I have a best friend who is also in the program and my God it’s a healthy friendship! Who’d a thunk!? I hit a meeting everyday, I have a sponsor and I’m working the steps. Every day is not perfect, not even close, but I get to choose how I react. And these days I react with Love. No matter what I don’t pick up! God bless AA and all of you lovelies!
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positive
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erws2a
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What are your pick-me-ups?
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1a
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help-seeking
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Last week was a rough week for me and while I've done everything I can in response to those situations, I'm left feeling sad and drained. I've been trying to do things to cheer me up. My husband is going through his own stuff and I don't want to burden him and want to be responsible for my own mood.
I saw my therapist last Friday (she encouraged me to focus on the wins of the week), got a haircut on Saturday (I initially was like "Transform me!" but chickened out, worried that I'd be making an important hair decision while emotional). I'm curious if other people have felt this way and what they've done to get out of the funk.
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licitlily520
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2020-01-21 16:14:55
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selfhelp
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<es>Last week was a rough week for me and while I've done everything I can in response to those situations.<ee> <efs>I'm left feeling sad and drained.<efe> <es>I've been trying to do things to cheer me up.<ee> <es>My husband is going through his own stuff and I don't want to burden him and want to be responsible for my own mood. <ee> <es>I saw my therapist last Friday (she encouraged me to focus on the wins of the week), got a haircut on Saturday (I initially was like "Transform me!" but chickened out, worried that I'd be making an important hair decision while emotional).<ee> <rs>I'm curious if other people have felt this way and what they've done to get out of the funk.<re>
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why the last week was rough for you
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ek4a5y
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My friend cut me out of his life
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help-seeking
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I had a friend who had lowered my self respect to the point that I thought that if I die no one was gone have problems but I got help from my best friend who has been the nicest person to me after my nanana died but this person who made so many problems for me that I still have just gose u are not nice to me when all i say is u got fibre optic because he had such slow speeds (do u guys/girls think this is for the best)
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conolex
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2020-01-04 23:19:27
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sad
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<es>My friend cut me out of his life<ee> <es>I had a friend who had lowered my self respect to the point that I thought that if I die no one was gone have problems but I got help from my best friend who has been the nicest person to me after my nanana died but this person who made so many problems for me that I still have just gose u are not nice to me when all i say is u got fibre optic because he had such slow speeds (do u guys/girls think this is for the best)<ee>
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your friend cutting of your from his life
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you friend cut off from you
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eid30q
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It’s New Year’s Eve and I’m officially 50 day clean!!!!!
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0
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chitchat
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throaway109876
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2020-01-01 03:03:39
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selfharm
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positive
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f6p96o
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Not wanting to let go of suffering?
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1a
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rant
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So I notice this issue that I don't wanna let go of suffering.
For my adulthood I've felt lost a lot, done stuff that felt wrong, got a degree I don't care about, got a certificate for something I like but didn't pursue cuz social anxiety and feeling not good enough, didn't know how to take care of myself so made some decisions out of lack mentality, just a bunch of sh*t.
I'm in late 20s but feel like a young adult, got another job, hate it, I kind of got jobs based on lack mentality.
I feel like starting over somehow and reconnecting to my passions but part of me doesn't want to because I don't want to face the fact that I've wasted the past years in avoidance or doing crap I don't enjoy at all.
And I don't want to try to get what I think I might want, because I hate myself. I think part of me enjoys hating myself and feeling stressed. I'm also extremely lonely and I don't think people can fix that. As long as I feel like crap and like a fraud I'll feel lonely. Idk I'm just exhausted and my body feels tense.
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poopydiaperlollll
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2020-02-20 06:56:39
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getting_over_it
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<es>So I notice this issue that I don't wanna let go of suffering.<ee> <es>For my adulthood I've felt lost a lot.<ee> <es>done stuff that felt wrong.<ee> <es>got a degree I don't care about.<ee> <es>got a certificate for something I like but didn't pursue cuz social anxiety and feeling not good enough.<ee> <es>didn't know how to take care of myself so made some decisions out of lack mentality, just a bunch of sh*t.<ee> <es>I'm in late 20s but feel like a young adult, got another job, hate it, I kind of got jobs based on lack mentality.<ee> <efs>I feel like starting over somehow and reconnecting to my passions but part of me doesn't want to because I don't want to face the fact that I've wasted the past years in avoidance or doing crap I don't enjoy at all. <efe> <efs>And I don't want to try to get what I think I might want, because I hate myself.<efe> <efs>I think part of me enjoys hating myself and feeling stressed.<efe> <efs>I'm also extremely lonely and I don't think people can fix that.<efe> <efs>As long as I feel like crap and like a fraud I'll feel lonely.<efe> <efs>Idk I'm just exhausted and my body feels tense.<efe>
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you are unable to reconnect to your passion
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eiuvem
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Group situations
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1b
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help-seeking
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Hi y'all
So I most just get anxiety when I'm around groups of people. Like at a BBQ or something, where everyone's sitting around a table and there's one big group conversation. If I know everyone well, I'm okay. But if there's people I don't know, even just one , I get really nervous and I just pray that nobody shines the group spotlight on me. My biggest worry is that they'll try and joke with me somehow, and I'll be caught off guard and come off as being humourless because I don't know what to say, or that my face will go all red because everyone's looking at me.
The red face is the absolute worst because I feel like a lot of people are confused by it and then a lot of people, in my experience, will subtly ostrasize you. Like they won't be rude per se but they'll no longer pursue friendship with you, and your status goes down. It's happened in the past and the fear of it happening again is the reason for a lot of my social anxiety.
Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with this specific situation? I know I can take beta blockers but I'd like to actually heal the problem if possible. Thankyou!
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Ilovesalim
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2020-01-02 06:58:33
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socialanxiety
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Hi y'all <es>So I most just get anxiety when I'm around groups of people.<ee> <es>Like at a BBQ or something, where everyone's sitting around a table and there's one big group conversation.<ee> <es>If I know everyone well, I'm okay.<ee> <es>But if there's people I don't know, even just one , I get really nervous and I just pray that nobody shines the group spotlight on me.<ee> <efs>My biggest worry is that they'll try and joke with me somehow, and I'll be caught off guard and come off as being humourless because I don't know what to say, or that my face will go all red because everyone's looking at me.<efe> <efs>The red face is the absolute worst because I feel like a lot of people are confused by it and then a lot of people, in my experience, will subtly ostrasize you.<efe> <efs>Like they won't be rude per se but they'll no longer pursue friendship with you, and your status goes down.<efe> <es>It's happened in the past and the fear of it happening again is the reason for a lot of my social anxiety. <ee> <rs>Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with this specific situation?<re> <rs>I know I can take beta blockers but I'd like to actually heal the problem if possible.<re> Thankyou!
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eia0e4
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Olanzapine (Zyprexa)
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0
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help-seeking
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Hello everyone!
I've been diagnosed with BPD, I'm a 20 year old guy if that's relevant. And I've been taking Olanzapine 5 mg everyday before I go to sleep for a few weeks and it's been helping tremendously with my symptoms, I don't get angry as much, I don't have outbursts, it has helped with my symptoms perfectly and my mood feels very stable most of the day.
But I've been wondering if it's okay to keep taking this drug long term at this same dosage, I can't afford going to therapy again so I can't get a professionals perspective, nor did talk therapy help at all with me.
I'm aware of the weight gain but I've been exercising and haven't gained any weight, other than that the drug is perfect for me and I finally feel like myself again.
So is it okay to keep taking this drug for months, or years let's say at this same dosage? And what can I expect? Any long term effects or precautions I should be aware of?
Thanks in advance!
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starsinthedistance_
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2019-12-31 22:40:20
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Anxiety
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Hello everyone! <es>I've been diagnosed with BPD, I'm a 20 year old guy if that's relevant.<ee> <es>And I've been taking Olanzapine 5 mg everyday before I go to sleep for a few weeks and it's been helping tremendously with my symptoms,<ee> <efs>I don't get angry as much, I don't have outbursts, it has helped with my symptoms perfectly and my mood feels very stable most of the day.<efe> <rs>But I've been wondering if it's okay to keep taking this drug long term at this same dosage, I can't afford going to therapy again so I can't get a professionals perspective, nor did talk therapy help at all with me.<re> <efs>I'm aware of the weight gain but I've been exercising and haven't gained any weight, other than that the drug is perfect for me and I finally feel like myself again.<efe> <rs>So is it okay to keep taking this drug for months, or years let's say at this same dosage?<re> <rs>And what can I expect?<re> <rs>Any long term effects or precautions I should be aware of?<re> Thanks in advance!
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elzi6a
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I don't know what to do anymore.
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1a
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help-seeking
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I feel like no one takes me seriously. I feel worthless.
I'm paralyzed by fear, I can't sleep, people who were supposed to be a support network either can't or are unwilling to help me.
I don't have appointments scheduled until later this month and it's the soonest I could get.
WTF do I do, how can I stop disassociating? How can I kill the fear without it killing me?
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cherrypiemoonshine
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2020-01-08 21:47:59
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ptsd
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<efs>I feel like no one takes me seriously.<efe> <efs>I feel worthless. <efe> <efs>I'm paralyzed by fear, I can't sleep, people who were supposed to be a support network either can't or are unwilling to help me. <efe> <es>I don't have appointments scheduled until later this month and it's the soonest I could get.<ee> <rs>WTF do I do, how can I stop disassociating?<re> <rs>How can I kill the fear without it killing me?<re>
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what made you feel afraid
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ejb48u
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Saw a picture of my crushes ex
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0
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rant
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And now I want to die 🙃
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surrrah
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2020-01-03 05:49:37
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BPD
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<es>Saw a picture of my crushes ex<ee> <efs>And now I want to die <efe>
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why you want to die
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how did seeing the picture of you ex make you feel
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you saw a picture of your ex
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eiwzbz
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Getting a diagnosis finally made me happy, yet sad
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1a
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rant
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I was diagnosed with ADHD (finally, it's been a long road to get people to listen) a couple months back, and I've been on my meds since then (not ritalin, I think they're called medanef or medikenet, I live in Denmark so you might not know them?)... Anyway, the points is, ever since I got my diagnosis, I've gotten the usual tips and help from the doctors, and it's been helping me a lot!
And I finally feel satisfied with the help and diagnosis, since I before was only diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, but I felt like it didn't completely cover me, and my mom and sister (who also has ADHD) were really pushing for me to get it checked, since they thought I resembled an Adhd.
But at the same time, I feel so much more down...
It's hard to explain, but ever since I got my second "behavioural" diagnosis (I know it's much more than just that, but that's the part I wanna focus on here), I just felt so out of place.. I kick myself down, becuase I feel useless, and it's really hard for me to see myself ever getting an education, and living a normal life.. sorry for the long and incoherent text, I have a hangover, and I took meds.. so I'm not feeling to well
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Hapoe5
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2020-01-02 11:11:54
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ADHD
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<es>I was diagnosed with ADHD (finally, it's been a long road to get people to listen) a couple months back, and I've been on my meds since then (not ritalin, I think they're called medanef or medikenet, I live in Denmark so you might not know them?)...<ee> <es>Anyway, the points is, ever since I got my diagnosis, I've gotten the usual tips and help from the doctors, and it's been helping me a lot!<ee> <es>And I finally feel satisfied with the help and diagnosis, since I before was only diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, but I felt like it didn't completely cover me, and my mom and sister (who also has ADHD) were really pushing for me to get it checked, since they thought I resembled an Adhd.<ee> <efs>But at the same time, I feel so much more down...<efe> <efs>It's hard to explain, but ever since I got my second "behavioural" diagnosis (I know it's much more than just that, but that's the part I wanna focus on here), I just felt so out of place.. I kick myself down, becuase I feel useless, and it's really hard for me to see myself ever getting an education, and living a normal life..<efe> <efs> sorry for the long and incoherent text, I have a hangover, and I took meds.. so I'm not feeling to well<efe>
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eiw353
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Needing advice on how to approach neighbors for help without feeling too invasive/pushy
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1b
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help-seeking
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I'm a hud tenet and my landlord is trying to evict me; she was harassing me via weekly inspections and I basically told her if it continued I'd need to seek legal action (I checked the lease- my apartment was in compliance. There was no reason to do this.) I'm disabled, I have autism spectrum and anxiety and CPTSD, and yet, she is claiming I am harassing people now. (What??) she even got a witness; she is claiming I am pounding the walls and the floors and making excessive noise. I don't have a tv or stereo or a radio. I live alone. No kids, no loud pets. (If someone was hearing something, it may have come from somewhere else cause the walls are so thin but even my downstairs neighbor, who is friendly and was about, said there was no noise when I asked.)
She's currently on vacation. I tried to approach her a couple times when my social worker was with me (I'm scared to approach people alone,) but I was going to ask if she could come to court as a witness or write something up for me (I ended up leaving a note.)
I need to approach my neighbor tomorrow, I need to approach one of my neighbors, he is very friendly and has a dog that I pay every time I see him walking by in the hallways, I'm really shy but I like animals and he says hello and he is friendly so I like him, but coming to someone's door to ask for something makes me feel really flighty and nervous and I feel like a nuisance and like I'm being pushy; what are the best times of days to approach someone so you're not bothering their personal time? And how should I ask for him to write up something for me? Realistically, I'm sure he wouldn't mind but we are only cordial with each other so it feels weird to ask something so personal but my lisian is getting annoyed at me cause she says "just do it" but it's so hard for me. I feel bad but ended up lying saying I already did it :( i need to do it tomorrow. Is 11 am appropriate time to talk to people?
How can I approach him without feeling pushy or imposing? I can't sleep I'm so anxious!
(I apologize if there are any typos, I was using talk to text halfway through this; I'm so stressed, distracted and sleep deprived which isn't helping.)
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Reachingout365
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2020-01-02 09:22:55
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socialanxiety
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<es>I'm a hud tenet and my landlord is trying to evict me; she was harassing me via weekly inspections and I basically told her if it continued I'd need to seek legal action (I checked the lease- my apartment was in compliance. There was no reason to do this.)<ee> <es>I'm disabled, I have autism spectrum and anxiety and CPTSD, and yet, she is claiming I am harassing people now.<ee> (What??) <es>she even got a witness; she is claiming I am pounding the walls and the floors and making excessive noise.<ee> I don't have a tv or stereo or a radio. I live alone. No kids, no loud pets. (If someone was hearing something, it may have come from somewhere else cause the walls are so thin but even my downstairs neighbor, who is friendly and was about, said there was no noise when I asked.) She's currently on vacation. <es>I tried to approach her a couple times when my social worker was with me (I'm scared to approach people alone,) but I was going to ask if she could come to court as a witness or write something up for me (I ended up leaving a note.)<ee> <es>I need to approach my neighbor tomorrow,<ee> <es>I need to approach one of my neighbors,<ee> he is very friendly and has a dog that I pay every time I see him walking by in the hallways, <efs>I'm really shy but I like animals and he says hello and he is friendly so I like him, but coming to someone's door to ask for something makes me feel really flighty and nervous and I feel like a nuisance and like I'm being pushy;<efe> <rs>what are the best times of days to approach someone so you're not bothering their personal time?<re> <rs>And how should I ask for him to write up something for me?<re> <efs>Realistically, I'm sure he wouldn't mind but we are only cordial with each other so it feels weird to ask something so personal but my lisian is getting annoyed at me cause she says "just do it" but it's so hard for me.<efe> <efs>I feel bad but ended up lying saying I already did it :(<efe> i need to do it tomorrow. <rs>Is 11 am appropriate time to talk to people? <re> <rs>How can I approach him without feeling pushy or imposing?<re> <efs>I can't sleep I'm so anxious! <efe> (I apologize if there are any typos, I was using talk to text halfway through this; I'm so stressed, distracted and sleep deprived which isn't helping.)
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ejpptw
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The Epic Battle for Mental Health and Inner Peace, and the warrior women who lead it
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chitchat
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>Prudentius offers us a profound and empowering vision of what it means to struggle with self-destructive habits and addictions.
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>But make no mistake. Our psychic struggle *is* a war, he says—a titanic struggle, and it won’t be easy. Restraining our worst impulses will take every ounce of strength we can muster, and steely resolution.
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>But it's worth it, he implies. Impulses *can* be tamed and brought to heel. We can win the war by enlisting the coping mechanisms—those warrior women—that can defeat them.
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>You don’t have to be a Christian or even believe in God to appreciate this poem. In fact, it may be better if you don’t.
More [here](https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/ancient-insights/202001/the-epic-battle-mental-health-and-inner-peace).
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HereAtManorFarm
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-04 01:54:52
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addiction
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>Prudentius offers us a profound and empowering vision of what it means to struggle with self-destructive habits and addictions. > >But make no mistake. Our psychic struggle *is* a war, he says—a titanic struggle, and it won’t be easy. Restraining our worst impulses will take every ounce of strength we can muster, and steely resolution. > >But it's worth it, he implies. Impulses *can* be tamed and brought to heel. We can win the war by enlisting the coping mechanisms—those warrior women—that can defeat them. > >You don’t have to be a Christian or even believe in God to appreciate this poem. In fact, it may be better if you don’t. More [here](https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/ancient-insights/202001/the-epic-battle-mental-health-and-inner-peace).
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positive
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ejl14t
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6 days clean
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0
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rant
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I'm 6 days clean today and the cravings are so intense, I have a feeling I might relapse. Im trying to be strong but damn this is hard. I feel drained and the past couple days I have felt this weird feeling like I want to cry. All I want to do is sleep.
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kkhasanxiety
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2020-01-03 20:16:14
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addiction
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<es>I'm 6 days clean today and the cravings are so intense, I have a feeling I might relapse.<ee> <efs>Im trying to be strong but damn this is hard.<efe> <efs>I feel drained and the past couple days I have felt this weird feeling like I want to cry.<efe> All I want to do is sleep.
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what cravings you had
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the cravings are making you feel drained
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ei7f9e
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Guess who missed their haircut because they took too long to make a peanut butter sandwich
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1a
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chitchat
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I'll give you a hint. It's me.
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JurassicP0rk
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2019-12-31 19:18:12
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ADHD
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I'll give you a hint. It's me.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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ff7dr0
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Was this traumatic for me? Possible TW (I'm not sure.. sorry)
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help-seeking
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I hope this is a good place to post this.. I'll try to keep this short but I'm really struggling to validate what traumatizes me (or at least, I feel traumatized by it??). I've had many severe panic attacks and dissociative episodes because of it. The thing is, what triggered this for me was something that happened in many cartoons / children's movies, stuff that I and many other people have watched and has never affected anyone else, as far as I know. I guess I'll share what it is just for the sake of hoping for some answers. Seeing inflation as a child, like the blueberry scene in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, or in Shrek when the bird inflates and explodes, along with other examples that I wont get into. Since I was about 3 things like this really caused a distressing emotion for me, but it got worse about a year ago when someone recommended exposure therapy. I ended up seeing a video about it but it ended up being pretty gorey and graphic, which I didn't expect. It really made things a lot worse for me and at this point I just feel very alone and as if this shouldn't even be something that affects me this way? Is this something that could have traumatized me as a kid?? Sorry if this was long I was just hoping for some support...
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SecretVeggie7
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2020-03-08 04:21:53
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getting_over_it
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I hope this is a good place to post this.. I'll try to keep this short but I'm really struggling to validate what traumatizes me (or at least, I feel traumatized by it??). <es>I've had many severe panic attacks and dissociative episodes because of it.<ee> <es>The thing is, what triggered this for me was something that happened in many cartoons / children's movies, stuff that I and many other people have watched and has never affected anyone else, as far as I know.<ee> <rs>I guess I'll share what it is just for the sake of hoping for some answers.<re> <es>Seeing inflation as a child, like the blueberry scene in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, or in Shrek when the bird inflates and explodes, along with other examples that I wont get into.<ee> <es>Since I was about 3 things like this really caused a distressing emotion for me, but it got worse about a year ago when someone recommended exposure therapy.<ee> <es>I ended up seeing a video about it but it ended up being pretty gorey and graphic, which I didn't expect.<ee> <efs>It really made things a lot worse for me and at this point I just feel very alone and as if this shouldn't even be something that affects me this way?<efe> <rs>Is this something that could have traumatized me as a kid??<re> <rs>Sorry if this was long I was just hoping for some support...<re>
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eimr8v
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Starting College!
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0
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Looking for advice from anyone who has started college while dealing with an anxiety disorder. I move in just a few days and I'm super nervous. I have a dorm roommate who is very nice, I just can't stop overthinking. Any advice helps.
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myforeheadistoobig
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2020-01-01 19:49:33
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Anxiety
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<rs>Looking for advice from anyone who has started college while dealing with an anxiety disorder.<re> <efs>I move in just a few days and I'm super nervous.<efe> <es>I have a dorm roommate who is very nice, I just can't stop overthinking.<ee> Any advice helps.
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what you are overthinking about
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how you are feeling about starting college
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f2t0eb
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My rapists know my period cycle. Should I start naturally changing it?
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1b
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help-seeking
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Before I was raped they got my phone and looked at my period tracker. I don’t know what else they did while I was passed out or sleeping. I removed the app cuz it was giving me flashbacks and making me feel bad. Would it be good or bad if I start changing my period cycle?
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sophiaa03
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2020-02-12 15:39:48
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rapecounseling
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<es>Before I was raped they got my phone and looked at my period tracker.<ee> <es>I don’t know what else they did while I was passed out or sleeping.<ee> <efs>I removed the app cuz it was giving me flashbacks and making me feel bad.<efe> <rs>Would it be good or bad if I start changing my period cycle?<re>
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ej2bys
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DAE have intense psychosomatic reactions?
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survey
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Just today I was feeling so anxious that every muscle in my body ached. I couldn't do anything and I was just frozen and full of pain.
I don't know why but I often show physical reactions before I can acknowledge it emotionally.
I'm literally in physical pain and start throwing up and stuff when I'm feeling bad.
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ConstantSquash
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2020-01-02 18:51:23
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BPD
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<efs>Just today I was feeling so anxious that every muscle in my body ached.<efe> <es>I couldn't do anything and I was just frozen and full of pain.<ee> <es>I don't know why but I often show physical reactions before I can acknowledge it emotionally.<ee> <es>I'm literally in physical pain and start throwing up and stuff when I'm feeling bad.<ee>
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why you were feeling anxious
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every muscle in your body is paining
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ezld23
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I'm not sure how much longer I can take dealing with anhedonia.
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rant
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If you're unfamiliar with anhedonia it is basically the lack of or reduced ability to experience pleasure. It is a very common side effect of depression.
I've suffered with depression for many years especially since my late teens. I'm currently 25 years old and in a dead-end custodial job. I have been seeing a therapist since around October but our relationship has deteriorated and he has been rather rude to me and I don't think his methods are working for me. In addition I've tried various medications such as Prozac, Wellbutrin, paxil, most of ssris I can think of, Lexapro, and undoubtably more that I cannot think of at the moment.
I'd say like we're enlarge the worst part of my depression is the anhedonia factor. I just can't seem to get happy anymore or take pleasure in things. The only thing that makes me really happy is my cat and even that is fleeting.
I'm currently on Clomapramine and I'm looking to get it changed or adjusted tomorrow morning.
Additionally my mother had a stroke around September of last year. It was a bad one it basically left her left side paralyzed. This and other factors is why I went back into therapy in the first place.
Also my current job isn't going great. I'm starting to be scrutinized a lot more and they are trying to build a case to fire me I believe.so there is an inherent time limit on this crime job I say roughly two months.
I'm trying to find a job that I might be good at but the problem is that nothing makes me happy and nothing really drives me. The only thing that keeps me going some days is my mother and my cat.
I'm just so sick of feeling dead on the inside. I don't think medication is a magic bullet to my problems but hopefully it will help me get to a better place.
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JealousPickle
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2020-02-06 02:37:31
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getting_over_it
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<es>If you're unfamiliar with anhedonia it is basically the lack of or reduced ability to experience pleasure.<ee> <es>It is a very common side effect of depression.<ee> <es>I've suffered with depression for many years especially since my late teens.<ee> <es>I'm currently 25 years old and in a dead-end custodial job.<ee> <es>I have been seeing a therapist since around October but our relationship has deteriorated and he has been rather rude to me and I don't think his methods are working for me.<ee> <es>In addition I've tried various medications such as Prozac, Wellbutrin, paxil, most of ssris I can think of, Lexapro, and undoubtably more that I cannot think of at the moment.<ee> <es>I'd say like we're enlarge the worst part of my depression is the anhedonia factor.<ee> <efs>I just can't seem to get happy anymore or take pleasure in things.<efe> <efs>The only thing that makes me really happy is my cat and even that is fleeting.<efe> <es>I'm currently on Clomapramine and I'm looking to get it changed or adjusted tomorrow morning.<ee> <es>Additionally my mother had a stroke around September of last year.<ee> <es>It was a bad one it basically left her left side paralyzed.<ee> <es>This and other factors is why I went back into therapy in the first place.<ee> <es>Also my current job isn't going great.<ee> <es>I'm starting to be scrutinized a lot more and they are trying to build a case to fire me I believe.<ee><es>so there is an inherent time limit on this crime job I say roughly two months.<ee> <rs>I'm trying to find a job that I might be good at but the problem is that nothing makes me happy and nothing really drives me.<re> <es>The only thing that keeps me going some days is my mother and my cat.<ee> <efs>I'm just so sick of feeling dead on the inside.<efe> <es>I don't think medication is a magic bullet to my problems but hopefully it will help me get to a better place.<ee>
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which job will make you happy
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ejrjmu
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my wife has anger issues and i want to help, where can i i go to learn initial actions to help her change that
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help-seeking
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i am the type of person who practices mindfulness, i know my emotions well and know how to deal with negativity within me
however, my wife comes from a direct opposite of that, she emanates whatever emotions she has may it be positive or negative
now there's nothing wrong with that for sure but i have this notion that the delivery of a negativity affects the message such that 'it doesn't matter if you are right, if you deliver it the wrong way, it just makes things worse' and i live by this principle - i only raise my voice when necessary and would speak calmly even if i'm about to explode inside
lately, there have been instances where she speaks very passionately that i view it as anger speaking, but to her she says she's just telling the action, in short she looks like she is angry but she really isn't
i'm having trouble dealing with this because if what she says is true, then i don't have a problem with it, if what she says is not true, then i'm confused, does this mean she is not anymore aware of how she comes out?
i love her dearly, that's for sure, and i'm willing to learn and cope with whatever condition she has, i just believe that whatever this is, it's taking away life from her because of unnecessary stress it exerts on her and it also affects her message which i think is right most of the time
any leads would be appreciated
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kaimeerah
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2020-01-04 04:18:07
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Anger
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<rs>my wife has anger issues and i want to help, where can i i go to learn initial actions to help her change that<re> i am the type of person who practices mindfulness, i know my emotions well and know how to deal with negativity within me <es>however, my wife comes from a direct opposite of that, she emanates whatever emotions she has may it be positive or negative<ee> now there's nothing wrong with that for sure but i have this notion that the delivery of a negativity affects the message such that 'it doesn't matter if you are right, if you deliver it the wrong way, it just makes things worse' and i live by this principle - i only raise my voice when necessary and would speak calmly even if i'm about to explode inside <es>lately, there have been instances where she speaks very passionately that i view it as anger speaking, but to her she says she's just telling the action, in short she looks like she is angry but she really isn't<ee> <es>i'm having trouble dealing with this because if what she says is true, then i don't have a problem with it, if what she says is not true, then i'm confused, does this mean she is not anymore aware of how she comes out?<ee> i love her dearly, that's for sure, and i'm willing to learn and cope with whatever condition she has, i just believe that whatever this is, it's taking away life from her because of unnecessary stress it exerts on her and it also affects her message which i think is right most of the time <rs>any leads would be appreciated<re>
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How did X make you feel?
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your wife's anger
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elba7g
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Twenty-Four Hours a Day, 1.7
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0
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chitchat
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Thought
When temptation comes, as it does some times to all of us, I will say to myself: 'No, my whole life depends on not taking that drink and nothing in the world can make me do it.' Besides, I have promised that Higher Power that I wouldn't do it. I know that God doesn't want me to drink and I won't break my promise to God. I've given up my right to drink and it's not my decision any longer. Have I made the choice once and for all, so that there's no going back on it?
Meditation
In silence comes God's meaning to the heart. I cannot judge when it enters the heart. I can only judge by results. God's word is spoken to the secret places of my heart and, in some hour of temptation, I find that word and realize its value for the first time. When I need it, I find it there. 'Thy Father, who seeth in secret, shall reward thee openly.'
Prayer
I pray that I may see God's meaning in my life. I pray that I may gladly accept what God has to teach me.
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Whtsox
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2020-01-07 13:02:59
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alcoholicsanonymous
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Thought When temptation comes, as it does some times to all of us, I will say to myself: 'No, my whole life depends on not taking that drink and nothing in the world can make me do it.' Besides, I have promised that Higher Power that I wouldn't do it. I know that God doesn't want me to drink and I won't break my promise to God. I've given up my right to drink and it's not my decision any longer. Have I made the choice once and for all, so that there's no going back on it? Meditation In silence comes God's meaning to the heart. I cannot judge when it enters the heart. I can only judge by results. God's word is spoken to the secret places of my heart and, in some hour of temptation, I find that word and realize its value for the first time. When I need it, I find it there. 'Thy Father, who seeth in secret, shall reward thee openly.' Prayer I pray that I may see God's meaning in my life. I pray that I may gladly accept what God has to teach me.
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ejbplc
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I hate that I love this
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0
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survey
| 1 |
Does anyone ever feel like this is the best feeling in the world?
I just finished a session and I was crying all through it but after about 3 or 4 I couldn't even feel it it was so great. It was like when the scissors glide through paper. I know it's messed up to love cutting but it works and it feels good. Why is it so shunned. Everyone should be able to feel good.
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LivingInAnIdea
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2020-01-03 06:46:25
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selfharm
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<efs>Does anyone ever feel like this is the best feeling in the world?<efe> <es>I just finished a session and I was crying all through it but after about 3 or 4 I couldn't even feel it it was so great.<ee> <efs>It was like when the scissors glide through paper. I know it's messed up to love cutting but it works and it feels good.<efe> Why is it so shunned. Everyone should be able to feel good.
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why did you cut yourself
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you feel good on cutting yourself
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ei91m1
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I’m so tired of seeing death and finding something depressing in everything.
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1a
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rant
| 2 |
I will try to convey what this is like but it feels pointless. Even with people who can understand me doesn’t seem to grasp the severity of constantly feeling an overwhelming sense of darkness not only to myself but to everything almost every single fucking day and I feel like I’m dissociating to the point that I can’t function as a human being to not feel this. I’m tired of hearing, seeing and thinking of depressing shit and feeling the darkness manifest inside me it’s becoming too much. This world, this reality, hell my life are all a fucking depressing pointless waste. I don’t know what I can do besides sleep this off and when I’m awake I’m constantly thinking about killing myself to end the indescribable feelings of questioning everything. I slept all day and wasted another day of daylight of doing nothing and now it’s becoming nighttime which I fucking hate now It gets too pitch black here and I can’t stand it it reminds of the darkness I feel inside of me and now I’ll have to stay inside and waste away doing much of nothing either until I go back to sleep and then wake up doing this same boring and lifeless routine every day. This isn’t life, I already feel dead inside. I don’t know how much longer I can hold being like this.
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Useless_Nobody56
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2019-12-31 21:22:16
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depression
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<es>I’m so tired of seeing death and finding something depressing in everything.<ee> <efs>I will try to convey what this is like but it feels pointless.<efe> <efs>Even with people who can understand me doesn’t seem to grasp the severity of constantly feeling an overwhelming sense of darkness not only to myself but to everything almost every single fucking day and I feel like I’m dissociating to the point that I can’t function as a human being to not feel this.<efe> <efs>I’m tired of hearing, seeing and thinking of depressing shit and feeling the darkness manifest inside me it’s becoming too much.<efe> This world, this reality, hell my life are all a fucking depressing pointless waste. <efs>I don’t know what I can do besides sleep this off and when I’m awake I’m constantly thinking about killing myself to end the indescribable feelings of questioning everything.<efe> I slept all day and wasted another day of daylight of doing nothing and now it’s becoming nighttime which I fucking hate now It gets too pitch black here and I can’t stand it it reminds of the darkness I feel inside of me and now I’ll have to stay inside and waste away doing much of nothing either until I go back to sleep and then wake up doing this same boring and lifeless routine every day. <efs>This isn’t life, I already feel dead inside.<efe> I don’t know how much longer I can hold being like this.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you find everything depressing
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What can help you overcome X ?
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the feelings of questioning everything
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title,suicidal
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eiw6xn
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Just how bad am I that even the Funny Farm* doesn't want me?
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1a
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rant
| 1 |
(* Mental Health Unit Care, Mental Asylum ect.)
They turned me away saying
"There's nothing we can do for you"
What a joke...
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CaterinaRustic
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-01-02 09:35:56
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BPD
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(* Mental Health Unit Care, Mental Asylum ect.) They turned me away saying "There's nothing we can do for you" What a joke...
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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en66kp
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I was the best in my class
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1a
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help-seeking
| 1 |
I'm really sad, I don't understand anything at school anymore, I suffer to death both physically and mentally. Managing everything is impossible.
What can I do?
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Innominato1579
| 1 | 0 | 2 |
2020-01-11 11:06:46
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mentalillness
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<efs>I'm really sad, I don't understand anything at school anymore, I suffer to death both physically and mentally.<efe> Managing everything is impossible. <es> <ee>What can I do?
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What made you feel X ?
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sad
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What can help you overcome X ?
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the mental and physical suffering at school
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elmcnz
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I used sex to cope with Rape and I'm ashamed.
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1a
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help-seeking
| 2 |
The title says it all. I was raped when I was 18, at the very beginning of college. Before college, I knew that I wanted to wait to be in a serious relationship before having sex. I was very set on this modesty.
But in the past two years, I've changed. I counted the number of men I've had sex with.
Two were serious relationships. Three were casual relationships, but we were together, friends, or otherwise hanging out. One was a rebound after my first relationship ended and broke my heart. One was a date that pressured me into it, even when I said no, and I felt trapped. I did not want to have sex with him but it still happened. Two were just friends.
I feel so guilty. I feel as though I've made such an incredibly horrible mistake. If I could go back in time, maybe I could understand that I was doing the wrong thing. I feel so guilty. If someone were to ask me about the number of partners I've had, I feel so shameful admitting this. Somehow I thought that sleeping with someone would lessen the rape. Akin to driving again after a car crash. But driving excessively after a car crash your first time behind the wheel. Does making rape 10% of my sexual experience negate it, or does it just make me promiscuous?
Did anyone else have this experience? Have you used sex as a coping mechanism?
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Throwawaythnxbb
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-01-08 02:45:20
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rapecounseling
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<es>I used sex to cope with Rape and I'm ashamed.<ee> The title says it all. <es>I was raped when I was 18, at the very beginning of college.<ee> <es>Before college, I knew that I wanted to wait to be in a serious relationship before having sex.<ee> <es>I was very set on this modesty. <ee> <es>But in the past two years, I've changed.<ee> <es>I counted the number of men I've had sex with.<ee> <es>Two were serious relationships.<ee> <es>Three were casual relationships, but we were together, friends, or otherwise hanging out.<ee> <es>One was a rebound after my first relationship ended and broke my heart.<ee> <es>One was a date that pressured me into it, even when I said no, and I felt trapped.<ee> <es>I did not want to have sex with him but it still happened.<ee> <es>Two were just friends. <ee> <efs>I feel so guilty.<efe> <efs>I feel as though I've made such an incredibly horrible mistake.<efe> <efs>If I could go back in time, maybe I could understand that I was doing the wrong thing.<efe> <efs>I feel so guilty.<efe> <efs>If someone were to ask me about the number of partners I've had, I feel so shameful admitting this.<efe> <es>Somehow I thought that sleeping with someone would lessen the rape.<ee> Akin to driving again after a car crash. But driving excessively after a car crash your first time behind the wheel. <rs>Does making rape 10% of my sexual experience negate it, or does it just make me promiscuous? <re> <rs>Did anyone else have this experience?<re> <rs>Have you used sex as a coping mechanism?<re>
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ekgscr
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My mom asked me if I have any friends where I live.
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0
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help-seeking
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randomly_gay
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2020-01-05 18:23:35
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socialanxiety
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
| true | 0 |
ei7s7l
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So I'm sitting in my car alone with really no where to go to
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1b
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rant
| 1 |
Was supposed to meet with a friend for just a few hours but he just cancelled. Parents are to a party, other friends have other parties and I'll be here alone. Might aswell drive home and sleep then I guess.
2020 not even started for me but I already know its gonna suck lol.
Best wishes to all of y'all, really hope its turning out better for you.
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MoistQuacker
| 1 | 0 | 6 |
2019-12-31 19:44:23
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depression
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<es>Was supposed to meet with a friend for just a few hours but he just cancelled.<ee> <es>Parents are to a party, other friends have other parties and I'll be here alone.<ee> Might aswell drive home and sleep then I guess. <efs>2020 not even started for me but I already know its gonna suck lol.<efe> Best wishes to all of y'all, really hope its turning out better for you.
| 2 | 1 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
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how being alone makes you feel
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel lonely
| null | true | 210 |
ei91sj
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The only reason to keep alive is to open my Christmas' gift
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0
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rant
| 1 |
Maybe it's all the capitalism, but the only thing that makes smile is the thought that 6th of January (in my country there is another festivity) another I will open a lot of art supplies.
Maybe I am just in a really bad moment of all of this shit, but nothing motivates me anymore. I like to think that will be something more in the future, but the point is: there is something to keep you here, maybe something really silly or really insignificant, but if this is keeping you here, it is fucking relevant, just look for that thing.
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_shear
| 1 | 0 | 1 |
2019-12-31 21:22:41
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depression
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Maybe it's all the capitalism, but the only thing that makes smile is the thought that 6th of January (in my country there is another festivity) another I will open a lot of art supplies. <es>Maybe I am just in a really bad moment of all of this shit, but nothing motivates me anymore.<ee> I like to think that will be something more in the future, but the point is: there is something to keep you here, maybe something really silly or really insignificant, but if this is keeping you here, it is fucking relevant, just look for that thing.
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why nothing motivates you anymore
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How did X make you feel?
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lack of motivation
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you don't feel motivated to do anything
| null | true | 100 |
ej0qpm
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Advice needed
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1a
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survey
| 1 |
Hi guys, ive been smoking weed almost everyday from 13 years of age im now 28. It got heavy when i was about 16. I have been also taking cocaine and mdma since i was 16, i dont know a life without drugs. I always relapse after about 6 weeks. I train alot in the gym but my weight always goes down whe i relapse.
My question is how long does it take to start feeling like a normal person again or have i likely done serious mental damage. I suffer from adhd and when i stop the weed my thoughts go haywire. I cant focus on simple tasks like cleaning or working anymore. Ive recently lost my job due to my mental health.
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aaronrb1991
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-02 16:56:53
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addiction
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<es>Hi guys, ive been smoking weed almost everyday from 13 years of age im now 28.<ee> <es>It got heavy when i was about 16.<ee> <es>I have been also taking cocaine and mdma since i was 16, i dont know a life without drugs.<ee> <es>I always relapse after about 6 weeks.<ee> <efs>I train alot in the gym but my weight always goes down whe i relapse.<efe> <rs>My question is how long does it take to start feeling like a normal person again or have i likely done serious mental damage.<re> <es><efs>I suffer from adhd and when i stop the weed my thoughts go haywire.<efe><ee> <efs>I cant focus on simple tasks like cleaning or working anymore.<efe> <efs>Ive recently lost my job due to my mental health.<efe>
| 2 | 2 | 2 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null | null | true | 222 |
ek927r
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Tomorrow will be Day 7 without subs
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0
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chitchat
| 1 |
I’m hoping the lower back pain and restless legs go away. Luckily I took the leap right before a vacation, so I dealt with it while having no responsibilities.
Thanks for everyone’s support, it means a lot to me. I need to make it this time!
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HelpMePlease11111222
| 2 | 0 | 13 |
2020-01-05 06:03:35
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>I’m hoping the lower back pain and restless legs go away.<ee> <es>Luckily I took the leap right before a vacation, so I dealt with it while having no responsibilities.<ee> Thanks for everyone’s support, it means a lot to me. I need to make it this time!
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what caused the lower back pain
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How did X make you feel?
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all the pain and restlessness
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are having lower back pain
| null | true | 100 |
ejn7d2
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Dealing with Social Anxiety and trying not to form connections with people in the future
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1b
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help-seeking
| 2 |
How do I explain this?
I’ve been bullied my entire life, have been raised technically by a single mother, which I hate.
A man who is raised without a father/father figure isn’t masculine, doesn’t know how to fight, doesn’t know how to talk back verbally to people, and chooses to ignore/accept being harmed without doing anything.
I’ve already had fake groups of friends and they still affect my mind today.
It also pisses me off that I want to cry when typing this post.
People tell me I’m too nice, and shy. I hate it. People say I can change that but it’s impossible since I’ve been raised like that my whole life.
The only person who I know how to fight and verbally talk to is my mother. I almost went to prison at the age of 15 because of that.
Everytime I think about the situation I am in currently, I really want to cry and beat up my mother.
My mother isn’t even great, her marriage contract with my dad is fake, which courts don’t know.
That’s also the reason why my father doesn’t usually come here, and he has a real wife and kids, AKA second wife.
I also have trust issues. My best friend liked to hang out with me because I had money, and he even stole my bus transport card, and denied it.
Some people say I look good looking, but what’s the point of good looks if my personality isn’t masculine or aggressive?
People say that men should be open and speak their feelings out, but in reality nobody wants to hear that shit and the women they like will be turned off.
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Anomalistic_Username
| 2 | 0 | 3 |
2020-01-03 22:49:03
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socialanxiety
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How do I explain this? <es>I’ve been bullied my entire life, have been raised technically by a single mother, which I hate.<ee> <es>A man who is raised without a father/father figure isn’t masculine, doesn’t know how to fight, doesn’t know how to talk back verbally to people, and chooses to ignore/accept being harmed without doing anything.<ee> <es>I’ve already had fake groups of friends and they still affect my mind today.<ee> <efs>It also pisses me off that I want to cry when typing this post.<efe> <es>People tell me I’m too nice, and shy.<ee> <es>I hate it.<ee> People say I can change that but it’s impossible since I’ve been raised like that my whole life. <es>The only person who I know how to fight and verbally talk to is my mother.<ee> <es>I almost went to prison at the age of 15 because of that. <ee> <efs>Everytime I think about the situation I am in currently, I really want to cry and beat up my mother.<efe> <es>My mother isn’t even great, her marriage contract with my dad is fake, which courts don’t know.<ee> <es>That’s also the reason why my father doesn’t usually come here, and he has a real wife and kids, AKA second wife.<ee> <es>I also have trust issues.<ee> <es>My best friend liked to hang out with me because I had money, and he even stole my bus transport card, and denied it. <ee> Some people say I look good looking, but what’s the point of good looks if my personality isn’t masculine or aggressive? People say that men should be open and speak their feelings out, but in reality nobody wants to hear that shit and the women they like will be turned off.
| 2 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null |
How did X make you feel?
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your situation
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are getting bullied
| null | true | 200 |
f1zqwx
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My anger is ruining my relationships with friends and I don’t know how to stop it
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1a
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rant
| 1 |
I have severe control and anger problems that often cause me to yell at people really quickly over simple disagreements. I know it’s wrong and I know I should stop but I can’t. I get tunnel vision when I get mad and don’t feel any regret until like a hour after the end of my screaming fit
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AllInWithOakland
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-02-11 00:15:50
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Anger
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<es>I have severe control and anger problems that often cause me to yell at people really quickly over simple disagreements.<ee> I know it’s wrong and I know I should stop but I can’t. <efs>I get tunnel vision when I get mad and don’t feel any regret until like a hour after the end of my screaming fit<efe>
| 1 | 2 | 0 |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what makes you angry
| null | null |
What do you need help with now that X?
|
you are unable to control your anger
| null | true | 120 |
el885n
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I’m scared I’m addicted to weed
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1a
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help-seeking
| 1 |
I’ve been smoking everyday for probably the past 8 months, and I cannot stop. I’m gunna try really hard agin to stop but I feel like I’m so depressed lately. Please give me some advice
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zacstop
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-07 07:23:39
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addiction
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<es>I’ve been smoking everyday for probably the past 8 months, and I cannot stop.<ee> <efs>I’m gunna try really hard agin to stop but I feel like I’m so depressed lately.<efe> <rs>Please give me some advice<re>
| 1 | 1 | 1 |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what made you depressed
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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how does smoking make you feel
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what would help you not be depressed
| null | true | 111 |
ephsp5
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Today is the day he will plead guilty.
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1b
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rant
| 1 |
Ironically, I felt guilty for not being able to stand face to face for a trial. But he and his team were planning to take me down for ALL of the things I did wrong: like showering after, waiting to tell police, and letting him sleep in my bed. It’s a witch hunt. I felt like I let so many others down that don’t get the chance to make it as far as I did. For those who like me with my other sexual assault growing up, swore to never tell.
But today, I’ll get back my voice.
Instead of 2nd degree rape which is what he was charged with, he will plea guilty to sexual battery on a female and serve thirty days in jail. He will also plead guilty to assault on a female. Although it’s a lesser charge, I am content. There’s no probation and being that he was a soldier, he is not from this area so after his time spent in jail, he will leave.
Just know, that I’m speaking today for everyone who has lost their voice, are afraid to speak, and will never get the chance to. Although, I am absolutely terrified - I have to do this.
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demisequeen
| 1 | 0 | 11 |
2020-01-16 10:52:58
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rapecounseling
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<efs>Ironically, I felt guilty for not being able to stand face to face for a trial.<efe> <es>But he and his team were planning to take me down for ALL of the things I did wrong: like showering after, waiting to tell police, and letting him sleep in my bed.<ee> <es>It’s a witch hunt.<ee> <efs>I felt like I let so many others down that don’t get the chance to make it as far as I did.<efe> <es>For those who like me with my other sexual assault growing up, swore to never tell. <ee> <es>But today, I’ll get back my voice. <ee> <es>Instead of 2nd degree rape which is what he was charged with, he will plea guilty to sexual battery on a female and serve thirty days in jail.<ee> <es>He will also plead guilty to assault on a female.<ee> <es>Although it’s a lesser charge, I am content.<ee> <es>There’s no probation and being that he was a soldier, he is not from this area so after his time spent in jail, he will leave. <ee> <es>Just know, that I’m speaking today for everyone who has lost their voice, are afraid to speak, and will never get the chance to.<ee> <efs>Although, I am absolutely terrified - I have to do this.<efe>
| 2 | 2 | 0 | null | null | null | null |
What do you need help with now that X?
|
you are terrified of speaking in the court
| null | true | 220 |
eiml5x
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Feelings of impending doom.
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1a
|
help-seeking
| 1 |
Usually only at nighttime, especially when I’m home alone, I get a strong feeling of impending doom and dread for what could happen next in my life. I’m not looking for a diagnosis and will not consider any answers to be a definitive diagnosis. I’m just looking for some suggestions as to what this might be so I can do some research of my own.
Thank you and happy new year everyone, god bless.
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ObungusOverlord
| 1 | 0 | 2 |
2020-01-01 19:37:15
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mentalillness
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<efs>Usually only at nighttime, especially when I’m home alone, I get a strong feeling of impending doom and dread for what could happen next in my life.<efe> I’m not looking for a diagnosis and will not consider any answers to be a definitive diagnosis. <rs>I’m just looking for some suggestions as to what this might be so I can do some research of my own.<re> Thank you and happy new year everyone, god bless.
| 0 | 2 | 2 |
What made you feel X ?
|
the strong sense of dread about your future
| null | null | null | null | null | true | 22 |
espptk
|
Tonight
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1b
|
help-seeking
| 2 |
I don't know is what happened. I live(d) in a very stable income home, upper middle class, 4 cars, nice house, everything. Tonight my dad and mom got in a disagreement, and went in their room. I turned on the noise generator, like i normally do when they fight. Then I hear my mom screaming " I can't breathe " over and over. It slowly dies out. I flipped out, I then walked outside to look through their window, cause I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My dad was choking the crap out of my mom. She passed out, I thought she's was dead.
She woke up what felt like 30 minutes later (idk the actual time frame I was scared. ) I went back inside, and she was trying to walk but could barely function. My dad went to bed, and I packed up all my things. ( we are military, so I move alot, I only own 2 boxes of things out of habit.) I grabbed my mom, and as much stuff as I could, and managed to get the hell out of dodge. She had 500 dollars cash that she had been saving she grabbed, so I stopped at a hotel and booked a night. That is where I'm typing this from. She can't move one of her arms at all, and has bruising all over her neck and body. This was at 20:30. It's 00:16 right now. I can't sleep, I can't think. I am a highschooler. What do I do. Police is not an option.
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USspartan
| 1 | 0 | 10 |
2020-01-23 07:21:23
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domesticviolence
|
<es>I don't know is what happened.<ee> <es>I live(d) in a very stable income home, upper middle class, 4 cars, nice house, everything.<ee> <es> Tonight my dad and mom got in a disagreement, and went in their room.<ee> <es>I turned on the noise generator, like i normally do when they fight.<ee> <es>Then I hear my mom screaming " I can't breathe " over and over.<ee> <es>It slowly dies out.<ee> <es>I flipped out, I then walked outside to look through their window, cause I couldn't believe what I was hearing.<ee> <es>My dad was choking the crap out of my mom.<ee> <es>She passed out, I thought she's was dead. <ee> <es>She woke up what felt like 30 minutes later (idk the actual time frame I was scared. )<ee> <es>I went back inside, and she was trying to walk but could barely function.<ee> <es>My dad went to bed, and I packed up all my things.<ee> <es> ( we are military, so I move alot, I only own 2 boxes of things out of habit.)<ee> <es>I grabbed my mom, and as much stuff as I could, and managed to get the hell out of dodge.<ee> <es> She had 500 dollars cash that she had been saving she grabbed, so I stopped at a hotel and booked a night.<ee> <es>That is where I'm typing this from.<ee> <es>She can't move one of her arms at all, and has bruising all over her neck and body.<ee> <es>This was at 20:30.<ee> <es>It's 00:16 right now.<ee> <efs>I can't sleep, I can't think.<efe> <es>I am a highschooler.<ee> <rs>What do I do.<re> <rs> Police is not an option.<re>
| 2 | 1 | 2 | null | null |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
|
how you felt about your dad's aggression
| null | null | null | true | 212 |
ejqpuo
|
A dose of 20th century poetry...
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0
|
chitchat
| 2 |
Eyes I dare not meet in dreams,
In death's dream kingdom
These do not appear:
There, the eyes are
Sunlight on the ruins of a tower,
The remnants of a civilization
Lost...
Can you hear the creaking of trees,
And faint voices in the wind?
Listen, and hear them,
More distant,
And more solemn
Than a dying star...
(Adapted from "The Hollow Men" by TS Eliot, 1925)
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steviendaedalus
| 2 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-04 03:12:20
|
sad
|
Eyes I dare not meet in dreams, In death's dream kingdom These do not appear: There, the eyes are Sunlight on the ruins of a tower, The remnants of a civilization Lost... Can you hear the creaking of trees, And faint voices in the wind? Listen, and hear them, More distant, And more solemn Than a dying star... (Adapted from "The Hollow Men" by TS Eliot, 1925)
| 0 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null |
random
| true | 0 |
f58koq
|
I need that person to pay the price but they keep making me pay it instead.
|
1c
|
help-seeking
| 3 |
I don't feel vengeful, but do feel at my wits end. Not backing down is causing me to stick inside triggering situations and double down on the pain and anger. I have to stand up for myself and make sure I'm not getting taken for a ride, but it's hurting.
Have already punched my door and head board to recover and reduce the burning sadness and exhaustion i feel.
Even writing this, I feel in it again.
The person seems to have started to impersonate me and i want so badly to feel free of conflict.
I'm finding it impossible to walk away.
Please what am i meant to do when i have to sit with myself after walking out?
|
DaisyDondu
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-02-17 13:14:29
|
Anger
|
<efs>I don't feel vengeful, but do feel at my wits end.<efe> <efs>Not backing down is causing me to stick inside triggering situations and double down on the pain and anger.<efe> <efs>I have to stand up for myself and make sure I'm not getting taken for a ride, but it's hurting. <efe> <efs>Have already punched my door and head board to recover and reduce the burning sadness and exhaustion i feel. <efe> <efs>Even writing this, I feel in it again. <efe> <es>The person seems to have started to impersonate me and i want so badly to feel free of conflict.<ee> <es>I'm finding it impossible to walk away.<ee> <rs>Please what am i meant to do when i have to sit with myself after walking out?<re>
| 2 | 2 | 2 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null | null | true | 222 |
enjmp0
|
The moment I move out and live on my own I am going to sign up for therapy/counseling and get my mind out of the hell it has been in since I was 7 years old.
|
0
|
rant
| 1 |
Today was my breaking point. I vow to myself that I will go to therapy when I am out of my parents house. They don’t know what happened to me and I don’t want them to know. So therapy will have to wait until I move out.
|
ilickedthesaltlamp
| 1 | 0 | 4 |
2020-01-12 05:42:38
|
rapecounseling
|
<es>The moment I move out and live on my own I am going to sign up for therapy/counseling and get my mind out of the hell it has been in since I was 7 years old.<ee> <es>Today was my breaking point.<ee> <rs>I vow to myself that I will go to therapy when I am out of my parents house.<re> <es>They don’t know what happened to me and I don’t want them to know.<ee> <es>So therapy will have to wait until I move out.<ee>
| 1 | 0 | 2 |
Can you elaborate more on X ?
|
what happened
|
How did X make you feel?
|
the incident
| null | null | null | true | 102 |
eidgoy
|
Honestly my new years resolution is just to make better eye contact
|
0
|
chitchat
| 1 | null |
Bugbran
| 1 | 0 | 7 |
2020-01-01 03:41:08
|
socialanxiety
| null | 0 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null |
random
| true | 0 |
eiw3zr
|
insomnia
|
0
|
survey
| 1 |
it’s currently 3:15am where i am and i’m exhausted but not asleep, and i don’t know why. does anyone else experience insomnia in that way? where your mind won’t let you stop doing things and you can tell your avoiding sleep, but it’s not like a conscious decision to. it’s almost this compulsive, borderline-panicked need to *keep going*, and you have no clue where it’s stemming from. this happens to me all the time and im sometimes able to tear myself away in order to sleep but there have been too many nights where i haven’t and the sun is suddenly rising and i can’t figure out why i didn’t just sleep. i get increasingly frustrated with myself because i feel like i’m allowing it to happen, even though i feel completely powerless in the moment.
tbh this might not specifically be a bpd thing, but i was curious, since i experience “manic” states due to bpd that really remind me of this feeling.
|
way-tootired
| 1 | 0 | 5 |
2020-01-02 09:25:56
|
BPD
|
<efs>it’s currently 3:15am where i am and i’m exhausted but not asleep, and i don’t know why.<efe> <es>does anyone else experience insomnia in that way?<ee> <es>where your mind won’t let you stop doing things and you can tell your avoiding sleep, but it’s not like a conscious decision to.<ee> <es>it’s almost this compulsive, borderline-panicked need to *keep going*, and you have no clue where it’s stemming from.<ee> <es>this happens to me all the time and im sometimes able to tear myself away in order to sleep but there have been too many nights where i haven’t and the sun is suddenly rising and i can’t figure out why i didn’t just sleep.<ee> <efs>i get increasingly frustrated with myself because i feel like i’m allowing it to happen, even though i feel completely powerless in the moment. <efe> <es>tbh this might not specifically be a bpd thing, but i was curious, since i experience “manic” states due to bpd that really remind me of this feeling.<ee>
| 2 | 2 | 0 | null | null | null | null |
What do you need help with now that X?
|
you are experiencing insomnia
| null | true | 220 |
eub4pn
|
Screwed up shit
|
1a
|
rant
| 1 |
Just got to know that practically the whole of my grade (8th) hates me...from what I've heard from my friend anyway. I guess it's cuz I get pissed way too often and take things personally. Mood swings is like an addiction to me sometimes...and when I got to know people hate me..right before I leave the school as well..it's really sad. And I argued with the friend who told me this because of my freaking anger. She gets annoyed everytime and now we're left our convos in a really depressing state..sigh.. shit's complicated. I'm always the guy who gets pissed...and at the end I take the piss and get a mood swing. Idk what to do.. really depressing.
Just thought I could share it to y'all..hope I haven't wasted your time. Just needed to let this out.
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MysticNeil
| 1 | 0 | 1 |
2020-01-26 19:09:24
|
Anger
|
<es>Just got to know that practically the whole of my grade (8th) hates me...from what I've heard from my friend anyway.<ee> <es>I guess it's cuz I get pissed way too often and take things personally.<ee> <es>Mood swings is like an addiction to me sometimes...and when I got to know people hate me..right before I leave the school as well..it's really sad.<ee> <es>And I argued with the friend who told me this because of my freaking anger.<ee> <es>She gets annoyed everytime and now we're left our convos in a really depressing state..sigh.. shit's complicated.<ee> <es>I'm always the guy who gets pissed...and at the end I take the piss and get a mood swing.<ee> <es>Idk what to do.. really depressing.<ee> Just thought I could share it to y'all..hope I haven't wasted your time. Just needed to let this out.
| 2 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null |
How did X make you feel?
|
the recent events
|
What do you need help with now that X?
|
the recent events made you depressed
| null | true | 200 |
eojr43
|
Colm Holland reveals The Secret of The Alchemist
|
0
|
chitchat
| 4 | null |
wiziwiz
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-14 10:52:21
|
selfhelp
| null | 0 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null | null | true | 0 |
ell5gf
|
Just got out of detox
|
1c
|
rant
| 1 |
Have 4 days clean and staying with my parents and there are some incredibly strict rules which suck but hey at least I’m clean I appreciate all the support I got on my going to detox post you guys are the best. #fuckfentanyl
|
professorpounds420
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-01-08 01:12:01
|
OpiatesRecovery
|
Have 4 days clean and staying with my parents and there are some incredibly strict rules which suck but hey at least I’m clean I appreciate all the support I got on my going to detox post you guys are the best. #fuckfentanyl
| 0 | 0 | 0 |
Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
| null | null | null | null | null |
random
| true | 0 |
elgxwu
|
Quitting cold Turkey
|
1b
|
help-seeking
| 1 |
My bf quit his methadone and has been without it for a week now.
He is having cold sweats, body aches and cannot sleep even with sleeping pills.
I've stated before I am not an addict and have no experience with this. Can you please help me help him?? What has worked for you that have quit cold turkey??? All help is appreciated.
|
wuzzylove
| 1 | 0 | 20 |
2020-01-07 20:11:10
|
OpiatesRecovery
|
<es>My bf quit his methadone and has been without it for a week now. <ee> <es>He is having cold sweats, body aches and cannot sleep even with sleeping pills. <ee> <es>I've stated before I am not an addict and have no experience with this.<ee> <rs>Can you please help me help him??<re> <rs>What has worked for you that have quit cold turkey???<re> <rs>All help is appreciated.<re>
| 2 | 0 | 2 | null | null |
How did X make you feel?
|
your boyfriends withdrawl symptoms
| null | null | null | true | 202 |
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REDDME
This repository contains the dataset introduced in the paper:
- Paper: Assess and Prompt: A Generative RL Framework for Improving Engagement in Online Mental Health Communities
- Published in Findings of EMNLP 2025
📖 Description
We propose REDDME, a manually annotated corpus extended from the publicly available mental health subreddit corpus, BeCOPE (Srivastava et al., 2025).
BeCOPE categorizes posts into three categories:
- Interactive → back-and-forth conversations between the OP (original poster) and peers
- Non-interactive → post engages peers, but the OP does not reply
- Isolated → post receives no comments
REDDME selects 4,760 posts from BeCOPE and manually annotates them with support attributes:
- Event
- Effect
- Requirement
Each attribute is annotated with spans (rationales) and an intensity level.
Citation
If you use this work, please cite:
@misc{gaur2025assesspromptgenerativerl,
title={Assess and Prompt: A Generative RL Framework for Improving Engagement in Online Mental Health Communities},
author={Bhagesh Gaur and Karan Gupta and Aseem Srivastava and Manish Gupta and Md Shad Akhtar},
year={2025},
eprint={2508.16788},
archivePrefix={arXiv},
primaryClass={cs.CL},
url={https://arxiv.org/abs/2508.16788},
}
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